Reveal those Emotion's @Boyster-BornThisWay

2011-11-17T02:56:00.000+08:00

Why don't we break up? :<

Looking at your picture makes me wanna do more things. Thanks!

2011-06-05T21:22:00.000+08:00

Omg! I freakout something but didn't scared at all.
But do check this eerie thingy.

I saw this article at some website and i check with the Video back.
It's Lady GaGa feat Beyonce - Telephone.

There's something on Beyonce long sleeve shirt, the hand part there. Omg! Totally eerie.
Check it out!

PS : So totally eerie right? :P

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Sorry for party rocking, No! It's suppose to say Sorry for not blogging.

Hahas, Lazy start of the month. Damn!

I need to go Vacation soon. Rarr.

So i gonna leave with some Quotes.

A Friend,

Accepts you as you are.
Believes in "You".
Calls you just to say "Hi".
Doesn't give up on you.
Envisions the whole of you.
Forgives your mistakes.
Give unconditionally.
Helps you.
Invites you over.
Just be with you.
Keeps you close at heart.
Loves you for who you are.
Makes a difference in you life.
Never judges.
Offers support.
Picks you up.
Quiets your Tears.
Raises your spirits.
Says nice things about you.
Tells you the truth when you need to hear it.
Understands you.
Values you.
Walks besides you.
X-plain things you don't understand.
Yells when you won't listen.
Zaps you back to reality.

"D" <3

Hope this will make you feel the day is better!

Good Luck!

Will post more things if i have the time.

Takecare <3

Chaos.

2011-05-25T09:00:00.000+08:00

Boyster showing a very emotional side of his character, as he admits he still sometimes feels like a loser.
& that people are trying to break him down.

I'm Boyster, i don't give a shit about you. Ya, than see this!

2011-05-25T01:22:00.000+08:00

I told the world, one day i would pay it back. But i don't even know if i believe it when i'm saying that.
Doubt starting to creep in, everyday it's just so grey and black. Hope i just need a ray of that. Cause no one sees my vision. When i play it for them, they just say it's whack. But they don't know what dope is. And i don't know if i was awake or asleep when i wrote this. All i know is you came to me when i was at my lowest!

You picked me up, breathed new life in me. I own my life to you.
But for the life of me, i don't see why you don't see like i do?

You say before : But it just dawned on me, i lost a Son. Demon's fighting you, it's dark!
Let me turn on the lights and brighten me and enlighten you. I don't think you realize what you mean to me, not the slightest clue. Cos me and you were like a crew. I was like your sidekick. You gonna either fight when i get of this fucking place. Or you gonna hug me, but i'm not an options! There's nothing else i can do.

It hurts when i see you Struggle! You come to me with ideas. You say they're just pieces, so i'm puzzled. Cos the shit i hear is crazy! But you're either getting lazy or you don't believe in you no more. Seems like your own opinions not one you can form. Can't make a decision, you keep questioning yourself.

Second guessing, Almost like your begging for my help! Like i'm your leader? You're supposed to be my fucking mentor! I can endure no more! I demand you remember who you are! It was you! Who believed in me. When everyone was telling you, don't sign me. Everyone at the fucking label, let's tell the truth! You risked your career for me, i know it as well as you. * I'm crying in this booth! You saved my life, now maybe it's my time to save yours. But i can never repay you, what you did for me is way more. But i ain't giving up faith and you ain't giving up on me. Get up * I'm dying! I need you, come back for the fuck sake!

Phew, hand till tired. LOL! Oh people don't care the on top typings. I writing for someone. :D
Well, some people in life thought we don't need them but actually we need them the most. But some people treat people like shit! I admit it. Fuck care! :x

I like a Love Machine!

2011-05-23T06:19:00.000+08:00

I always wanted to live the way i was, but i have changed to a new one.

Hehes, now i realise and finally awaken! Woohoo.

Pictures are so delightful isn't it? I don't care about that fucking motherfucker anm!

Well, we will move on to next topic? Hahas!

Okays, now my girlriend is sleeping at the Chair. She is too tired afterall, when to meet Dan at Bedok South.

Hmm, i never ask her wear high heels. But she did complain, hahas! So barefoot and walked till my house.

Maybe her legs are too tired. :P

And today is Monday Blues, damn it! Monday sucks for life! Shit ass!

So what i promise is to upload more pictures right? Hehes, alright.

I was too bored, so i took pictures of myself. There's alot to come, Patient. :D

Yes of cos, my Loverboy! : D
How hardworking is him! Kinda miss him now.

Nvm, shall go to rest soon. Hmm, happy looking peoples!
Remember to click the ADS if APPEARS. Tyvm! Love you peoples.

Goodnights, i know its morning! :D

Dirty talk S2

2011-05-22T08:33:00.001+08:00

I got no angel, i like the way you do that stuff to me.

To be continue ......

Boyster is not your average, bitch!

2011-05-11T10:07:00.000+08:00

Alright, time to blog. I know my blog seems so empty. But ya, i moving with life now.

I don't wanna say that my life is miserable or what.

We all are human beings, we do have up and downs.

Well, my facebook i won't be updating more at there.

So i shall use Twitter or Blog instead. :D

Cos it seems facebook is too boring nowadays.

So well, alot of people also been affected. I'm sorry! My bet.

When i post alot of things, you guys complain right. I know.

Later your page all my name, see my name also very bored. So ya, i'm sorry once again.

Won't post argue-ments between Me and My Girlfriend.

Last few days, spend a bomb to my Girlfriend.

Is all about paying back those times she spend on me? Ya.

I always thought one day she will realise, how i spend money and how she spend on her money to me?

Hmm, hope she notice something.

But i can ensure to you that i won't everyday and like everyday quarreling with her.

I get sick and tired! Seriously.

If quarrel quarrel quarrel, i can't win. What's the point, right?

So i rather be quiet if i'm not happy with.

Always smile, to brighten up your day. Hehe!

I still haven get my 2 shirts 1 jeans 1 bag 1 New cap 1 ear stud, pierce back my ear hole and tongue!

This i will do it. :D

Buay tahan see people doing it nowadays.

Hmm, alright i upload later?

Alright! Takecares peeps. Pictures uploading later too :D

Stay tune!

2011-05-11T00:56:00.001+08:00

"It's amazing how at one point in our lives we will be extremely close with someone and then later they will become a complete stranger. You will pass by them without a word. Without a single acknowledging look. This person, who once knew you so well, who once knew your fears, your desires, your dreams, your past , is not walking right past you, seeing right through you."

Voting's Election starts today.

2011-05-07T09:55:00.000+08:00

Today is the DAY!

Voting starts TO-DAY!

Here's an advice!

Look down!

PAP say, Pay & pay!

WP say, Why pay?

SDP say, So don't pay!

NSP say, Never say pay!

RP say, Return pay!

So GRANDMA'S & GRANDPA'S, UNCLES & AUNTIES, SISTERS & BROTHERS!

You decide whether to pay or not to pay. Happy Election!
Have fun!

Lady GaGa - Judas!

2011-05-06T06:28:00.000+08:00

Hit the Play Button! Quick.

Lady GaGa - Judas (New Video 2011)

My Favourite, I LIKE!

2011-05-04T02:45:00.001+08:00

Avan Ong

Age : 27 male.

Facebook Profile wrote :

"Kelvin your ex facing some serious problem with her new bf sia never go console her ah btw you got the address I sent you for interview?"

Studied at : Nanyang Polytechnic.

Eh excuse me, Mr Kepo! What's wrong? Why you like to kepo around?!

Can you just bother with your own life!

Everyone in a relationship facing problems! Don't tell me you are not?

Or you don't even have a EX?

Omfg! I know why, your face like this which girl like hor?! Hmm...

Maybe you should get that GST $$$$ and go for Surgery?

No point fighting with you cos i see you LOWWWW DOWNNNN!

DOWN TO THE DRAIN. SO WHAT YOUR IN POLY?

NO LOOKS! FUCK YOURSELF BETTER?!

: D

Wherever, whever you wanna go. I wanna love you forever!

2011-04-25T21:59:00.001+08:00

Love, through the trees, past the sky. Beyond the northern lights. Your the same, my delight. Reflecting in your eyes. And I won't let go, if you wait for me. Whenever, whatever and then you, select the day, selection. Whenever, whenever. I wanna love forever, love forever, baby. Wherever, wherever you wanna go. (One day)
Do whatever, do whatever baby. Wherever, wherever, forever together.

I fell asleep, don't know why. You let me come alive. You and me. We collide. Ignite the starry fire. And you warm me up, and you wait for it. Whenever, whenever.

Baby, i feel so sorry about always picking up fight with you. I know your angry when i meet my <3's one.

But i won't neglect you anm! I promise. Please forgive me. About yesterday i really wanna give up, because picking a fight with you, makes me love you more. :)

Hope you forgive me, i'm sorry once again. I love you. I don't bear to leave you again and again.

Cos your the only girl who understand much! I will listen to you. And i follow your saying.

I don't wish to pick on fight on you anm, you once runaway from me to find other guys.

I don't want to feel that feeling anm! Cos, it's hurt. I don't want! Please.

We gonna make it for our marriage, our lovely Taylor! & Have our happily ever! Not after! :x

<3 you always.

PS : If 1 day, 2 day, 3 day. I never get to meet you, but i still get the chance to meet you after the 3 days.

Becos without meeting you, i gonna miss you like hell!

Isn't it sad when you get hurt so much, you can finally say

"I'm used to it."

*PS : Picture's are not EDIT!

So don't say i edit till so nice horxz! ;|

No matter how hard we quarrel, but i don't wish to happen again.

I'm sorry, Baby!

This is the love, i can only give.

Love can only be given to 1 person, that is you. Baby!

I promised i won't "Neglect" & "Leave" you again!

Just know this, without him. I have no friends at all. My life won't be as happier.

I hope you understand.

Always thinking about you, Baby! <3

Na ruk anot, my 2 UNGLAM PIC'S! XD

Laugh when you can!

At my loverboy work place, Daniel!

Watch, how he is damn hard working. :D

Okay lahs, i nothing to do. So took pictures! :x

This picture has alot of meaning, baby!

Your the one who make me so slim! Your the one who make me so cute, like a "Gay" only!

Your the one who make my face turn so young! Your the one, who make everything goes OH LA LA!

Hahahahahahas.

I'm glad to have you and D's!

But please don't quarrel over him again, please. I will balance myself alright!

Life and love are different. So i will take the love, is for you! But not for D's.

But for life, i need you two! :<

That's all i asking for.

Hope for you understanding, my Baby!

I feeling so sleepy nowadays and wanted to puke every moment.

I think i'm "Pregnant!" Damn! Cannot lahs, i'm a guy.

Hahahahahas.

So ya, hmm.. I shall update more?

If i got more picture's!

Thanks for the view, my dear viewers fans.

*PS : Can help me click on the ADS, for your <3 to me!

Thank you! Appreciate your help.

Baby, your one in a million!

2011-04-24T18:42:00.000+08:00

Baby, i wake up alrdy. :) Now want prepare and bathe. Later going tampines.

W/ - Mom, Brother & Sister.

Wake up call me. :D Now i'm missing you badly. Sighs!

Been missing you. :(

How i wish you be with me 24/7 hahas.

Like that no need work.

Okay lah, later i update again.

Chao's! :D

Heartbroken!

2011-04-18T02:19:00.001+08:00

I'm sorry my girl, i know i'm useless! :<
I love you this much, i just dk what you wanna me to do. I changed, i changed to a good one.
I don't wanna leave you anymore. That is a promise! :< Can you just understand my feelings?
I still need friends, brothers. But all gone, all gone. No one ever care about me when i feeling up and downs!
I sacrifice everything, clubs. Now i want is to be my girlfriend side, but not always.

WHERE WERE YOU! WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?! :<
I ALWAYS TRUSTED YOU, I ALWAYS CARE ABOUT YOU!
WHERE'S THE FUCKING RETURN! CAN YOU DON'T MAKE ME ANGRY?!
WHEN I COMEOUT IS JUST THAT YOU DON'T CARE ME AS MUCH AS LAST TIME!
WHAT DID I DO! GOD! PLEASE TELL ME WHAT DID I DO!
SOMETIMES, I ALWAYS TELL MY GIRLFRIEND, I REALLY CAN'T BE BOTHERED!
I REALLY CAN'T! BUT WHEN I NEED YOU, BY MY SIDE! NO ONE! NO ONE!
I TRUSTED YOU TOO MUCH! BUT WHAT DID I GET?!

YOU CHANGED! YOU FUCKING BLOODY CHANGED! NOW I NO ONE TO YOU.

STILL FUCKING FRAMED PHOTOGRAPHS OF YOU & ME TOGETHER! IS ALL I HAVE OF ME AND YOU ANYMORE. WE WERE SO INTO EACH OTHER AND WE THOUGHT IT LAST FOREVER! AND I WON'T FORGET YOU, I DON'T REGRET YOU! BUT THE HARDEST THING I HAVE HAD TO DO IS LIVE WITHOUT YOU! AND I WONDER WHY WE BOTH WALKED AWAY! I HAVE TRIED WITHOUT YOU, CRIED ABOUT YOU! NOW TURN AROUND, COME BACK! SO I DON'T DREAM WITHOUT YOU! AND I PROMISE I WILL MAKE YOU WANT TO STAY.

I'M SORRY FOR ALL I DID, WHAT I SAID. AND THE THINGS I HID. I'M FINALLY OVER ME! THE PAST IS THROUGHT. I CAN'T IMAGINE WHERE I BE! IF YOU HAD NEVER RESCUED ME! YOU GAVE ME HOPE TO LIVE! NOW I NEED YOU! COS I NEED YOU NOW!

As post to you :

5 months ago,When you left me alone.I had learnt not to be like the past "me".You didn't know how fucking hard I try not to drop anymore tears.Not ensuring people I'm alright,but ensuring myself more.Telling myself I'll be strong and fine.Yet now you're back my side as a new you.I'm happy yet now I start to feel the fear of the past is hunting me back.Dai yin Mai?The one that I love the most?! :(

: I WROTE IT!

YOU BETTER FUCKING DELETE ALL THE FUCKING POST YOU WROTE FOR ME! I DID NOTHING WRONG OKAYS! DAI YIN MAI?! CAN YOU FUCKING HEAR ME WHEN I'M INSIDE DB ANOT?! NO RIGHT?! WERE YOU THERE INSIDE THAT CELL? WHOS THE FUCK SUFFERING INSIDE FOR THAT FUCKING 5 MONTHS! WHO THE FUCK GOES THAI PUB/DISCO FOR THAT FUCKING 5 MONTHS! YOU LEFT ME, BECAUSE OF KELVIN! YOU LEFT ME! KEEP TELLING ME YOU MUST ACT STRONG, BE STRONG ! AND FINE! FOR WHAT FUCK, YOU WANNA ACT STRONG WHEN YOU CAN'T BE STRONG! JUST BECAUSE HES DOTE YOU MORE THAN I DO WHEN I'M INSIDE?! YOU FIND A GUY JUST TO ENTERTAIN WHEN I'M INSIDE?! WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT ?! I LOST FRIENDS! I LOST YOU! I LOST EVERYTHING WHEN I'M INSIDE THERE! I TRY TO FIGHT FOR YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU BECAUSE OF KELVIN! YOU DID THREATEN ME! YOU FUCK! YOU DID SAY : IF I EVER CONFRONT HIM! YOU BREAK UP WITH ME! YOU BREAK UP WITH ME! FOR ALL THE WORDS YOU WANNA USE, YOU WANNA BREAK WITH ME! AND NOW I'M BACK TO YOUR SIDE! I CHANGED! I FUCKING CHANGED! BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! I LOVE & CARE & DOTE MORE THAN EVERYONE ELSE! I EVEN FUCKING SACRIFICE MYSELF NOT TO GO CLUB ANYMORE! YOU GET PARANOID WHEN YOUR NOT BY MY SIDE! SO WHERE'S THAT FUCKING TRUST, IF YOU STILL PARANOID! I DON'T FUCKING HONG GIRLS OKAY, BUTTERFLYS?! BUTTERFLY FOR WHAT FUCK! PEOPLE GOT EYES TO SEE! YA, I HAVE FACE! I CARE ABOUT MY NAME, FACE AND MY RELATIONSHIP STATUES! I RESPECT IT! THAT'S WHY I NEVER GO HONG GIRLS! WHAT FEAR DO YOU FUCKING HAVE?! I GONNA LEAVE YOU LIKE LAST TIME! NO NO NO! THAT'S NOT FUCKING TRUE OKAYS! WHEN I SAY I GONNA FETCH YOU FROM WORK! YOU SAY DON'T NEED! I TRYING TO BE A GOOD BOYFRIEND, NOT LIKE THE FUCKING PAST NEGLECTING YOU! CAN YOU JUST FUCKING UNDERSTAND MY FEELING ANOT! I DON'T WANT QUARREL WITH YOU, BECAUSE WHEN I KNOW I QUARREL WITH YOU. YOU START TO CONTACT THAT FUCKING CHEAPSKIT COUGH SYRUP GUY, ASKING GIRL MONEY FOR PAYING HIS DEBT! TAKING DRUGS LIKE NO EDUCATIONS STEALING GIRLFRIEND, WHEN THE BOYFRIEND IS INSIDE! YOUR EX! YOUR EX! HE CAUSE THIS FUCKING THING! HE CAUSE EVERYTHING! I SWEAR TO GOD AND I SWEAR TO WHOEVER SAW THIS FUCKING POST SHIT! I MAKE SURE I GONNA KILL HIM WITH A KNIFE, IF HE DARES TO RUINED OUR RELATIONSHIP! CAN YOU PLEASE, PLEASE?! UNDERSTAND ME! I HAVE NO ONE ELSE! I HAVE NO ONE ELSE! UNDERSTAND! I'M NOT THAT FUCKING FAMOUS BOYSTER ANYMORE! I HAVE CHANGED! CHANGED!!!!!!!!!!!! =<

What else i gonna do! I wanna kill myself! :<
CUT MY WRIST BETTER!

Love is blind, but if you figure it out! All your love will be completed! Like how i do it! :>

2011-04-17T03:58:00.000+08:00

Love is always blind. But i did it! :) I'm proud of it!
Well, today i been a good boy! Didn't went to PH. As i was really can't be bothered by people nowadays.
Why my girlgirl don't believe! :<
Maybe i'm too old to club! I rather go thai pub/disco sia, serious shit! =P

Went to bugis, shopping! ;)
Saw Jesslyn, Ah Wen & Ah Chun. :) HEY!

Than after shopping went back to Hougang, my girlgirl house. Rest awhile, put all the things.
After that we went to Cine-Leisure, OMG! You guys know how many months i didn't step in there!
Like more than 5 months! Okay lahs, i was bloody happy. And i'm smelling the place that i miss alot! :)

Went Cine watch-ed the movie, "The Scream 4". COOL SHIT EVER!
PS : But girlgirl, don't like! Because its too scarry! :<

After that went home, with a Cab. :)
Now home sweet home, i gonna rest early. Have a morning jog! :) Gonna lose weight okays!
Nights peoples! :)

Happy 2 Years Anniversary Wifey! ;) LOVE YOU!

2011-04-14T05:16:00.000+08:00

Happy 2 years Anniversary, my dear girlgirl! Finally it's our 2 years! We completed! I'm glad i'm back with you. That's why i try to fight how hard is it! Because i don't want him to involve to our relationship, i promise i won't talk about him anymore. Make you heart feel so sick, i know! I'm sorry. I only need you and him in my life that's all. And of course! Our group of Cliques, Cycena & the Boyfriend. Lai Sing, Penny, Li Ting and other's. They are the best! The day won't be happy without them. I know. :)

Trying my best to be the good boyfriend just now okays. Today i pay alot of things. Cause i know girlgirl no money liao. ;) Got so good anot me? Hahas. And i won't forget one thing, 1st May and 10th of May, i will get pay. Alot of pay and i gonna share it with J & D only! So ya, without them in my life. Will be ruined! Okay lah, saying about D's. I miss him alot! Must faster get his spects fast! Later he keep kaobei! Hahahas.

Okay, just now i was late like 15 minutes to girlgirl house. Sorry lahs, the bus so slow and somemore from the bus - stop i walk to her house. No matter how hard to walk and sweat going down to my legs, i will still walk to my girlgirl house even it's very far. She cooked today, okay i love it! But it's pork. I try to cut down pork okay! Don't wanna eat anymore. And her mother cooking. I only don't like the Herbal cum black chicken. Feel like my stomach is calling to toilet now. But nvm, i gonna finish my post.

After eat dinner at girlgirl house, when down to meet Lai Sing, Penny, Li Ting and 1 guy. PS : I don't know his name, nvm. So we went to Hougang Green. Hahas, thanks to them! Wishing our 2 years anniversary. Love you guys! ;DDD
So we went to eat at Syed Roti Prata shop. The uncle jitao really stupid! We order, he write down. But when bill come he asked us what we eaten just now. HOW PATHETIC CAN IT BE! -,-!!
After that went to badminton court there slack-ed. Li Ting and her Boyfriend went off first, so left me, my girlfriend, penny and lai sing. Slacked till 4.30am. We went home with cab!

Hahahahahas.

To : My Girlfriend, My Pretty, My Wifey, My Love One. Only girl in the world!
What has happen in the past, we put it in the past. Now is time for our future! I don't want anything to get involve in our relationship anymore. Let's forget the past, i promised i won't say about anything regarding about him. Yes! Today onwards i won't say okay! Today i been a good NSF and a good Boyfriend okay. I went to endorse my MC'S! And i don't want delay any longer! I wanna get my pay and everything!
I promised to be the Boyfriend/Hubby to takecare of you, dote you the most and care for you the most too!

I won't neglect my care and love like last time anymore. I changed! So remember don't PARANOID! I warned you. I really love you. Happy 2 Years Anniversary! Thanks for been there for me for this 2 years. Helping me, supporting me, care for me, loving me. And i want you to be the Faithful girl i ever know. Counted by this year that means i know you for more than 5 years already. I already getting closed to you day by day. I know your pattern everything, please don't lie to me about anything. Anything don't like, say it out. Don't put it to your heart and i make sure i gonna answer every question you ask me. I promised!
Don't take D's things again, he's my only truthful brother. I hope you understand. And if he need help i will only help him! Hope you understand okays, girlgirl. After this i gonna bathe and nua liaoxz! Tired-rise, camp slept awhile nia. NABEI! SO HOT! I gonna be awake at 12pm i think. Cause gonna go to girlgirl house and accompany her. And we shall go out for our dinner or what. Love you! Please sleep early my girlgirl. ;>

Love you, my only girl in the world! :>

Signing off : Boyster, your only Boy in the world! ;>

Love love love, i want your love! :)

2011-04-12T13:41:00.000+08:00

PS : Cute right the girl!

(PS : I love her! Damn much!)

How many love can be deep? How many person are willing to wait?
After losing, then just realize, recalling near the arrangement.
A scene after scene conversation, performing our future on the stage.
Await, is actually a kind of pain, once the person we deeply love is gone.
It's me who don't dare to neglect the love you give to me!
Now I only want to be back to the first time, don't wish to let you cry anymore.
After loneliness, only you can accompany me. Now I only want to be back to the initial time.
I know you still love me, the beloved you.
Would you please hold my hand tightly? Would you please take a look at me!
Please look at me, who need you!
Only want you to turn back. ;)

Know what's the feeling when you know last time don't love her that much, but once she leaves you!
You get hurt and sad for that fucking 5 months! I regret okays and i learn my mistake either.
That's why i say, Cherish, Love, Care for the person now! Don't waste you relationship just like that.
Now i know i have fight back everything, just to have you by my side again!
And i'm happy alright. I won't cry and hurt like that 5 months again.
I'm sorry for not being the good boyfriend. But i always be the good husband! ;x

2 more days to our 2 years anniversary! Omg, that's fast right people.
Sighs, i will cry on this day. Don't know why i wasted that fucking 5 months! Shit!

The story of myself, D's and always mine (JTLY)! S2 you two!

2011-04-10T04:53:00.000+08:00

Just one more day i gonna book in to camp! And the feeling is really sucks lahs. And i gonna leave my girlfriend, while i'm at camp.. Hopefully i can get 8 to 5pm! And i can accompany her.

Sighs, saying about "I'm not a good boyfriend, but i can be a good "Husband"!" I'm really scared 1 day, yes i know i can't be a good boyfriend, but when i'm Married, i shall be your good HUSBAND. Cause i do respect myself and my Wife as a Husband. OMG! I really paranoid sia. <3 Her!

I promise we gonna have our Taylor! Because no matter what's happen, we gonna make thru everything! :)

Arghs, fucking regret lahs go in DB. Hell place to be! ;<

To Daniel, miss him every single day! Wish him to be safe always! Don't smoke too much! Takecare your girlfriend well okays, my Ah di <3! Will get your spects soon! I promise! I love him, always him as my brother! No one can compare within him, who compare i will shoot back whatever it takes! Only him, only him can make my day happier. But no one's else! He waited for me when i'm Released. But i too selfish to meet him! But i did! I did call him and meet him, because i can't really bear what it takes! I'm sorry. ;) Love you my Ah di <3 Daniel.

Hahahahhaas, this few days keep drinking, dranking, drunken! Damn, the feeling sucks lahs. Shall stop drinking this week! Enough already! Enough. Hahahahahas, thanks to my Wifey... <3 her! So much. I know i have changed, to a good one. I hope you won't hurt me like for the past 5 months, i know i'm in the wrong too. I should not even leave you. It's suffering inside you know! ;<

Okays lahs, i shall stop here. Feeling very sleepy! And my right eyes i think gonna infections. So pain, non-stop tears drop! Damn.

Good night world!

Frightening places! ;(

2011-04-09T16:52:00.000+08:00

I wouldn't wanna go back to that 4 walls again anm! I promised! I know i have changed alot after i have Released from DB. Changed to a good person, don't wanna be that Boy anm! I'm a man, okay! Not that childish anm! People keep saying me for nothing. I dislike it! Please. And that day there's this 2 girls, 1 fat 1 thin. Taking pictures of Me and My Girlfriend pictures don't know for what fuck lahs!

Can i be like the last time me? No! I wouldn't wanna do that! I hate my last time life. FRIENDS will be there for you, ARE YOU SURE?! I'm the one who handling all alone when i'm inside DB. I need friends all day who can keep accompanied thru out my Sentences... But yet no one is there for me. Keep sending letters out there, but all i received was Sad cases! Arghs!

Okays, i shall update more when i at home. Because be alone and blogging and all is the perfect time for me to express my feelings.

Goodbye!

Ps - I really miss you! I can explain! I'm sorry! Just for you D's! =(

2011-03-30T03:11:00.002+08:00

Just for you D's! ;<

Ps: I really miss you! I can explain! I'm sorry!

Well I'll always be there for you
When you need someone well I'll be that one
Well I'll do all my best to protect you
When the tears get me all right
Well I'll be the one that's by your side

Chorus:
Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

When you're sick I'll take care of you
Take your darkest night and make it bright for you
Well I'll be there to make you strong
And to lean on
When this world has turned so cold
Well I'll be the one that's there to hold

Chorus:
Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

And I'll love you more everyday
And nothing will take that love away
When you need someone
I promise I'll be there for you
There for you

Chorus:
Well I'll be there
when you call me in the middle of the night
I will keep the rain from falling down into your eyes
(I promise) I promise
(I promise)
I promise I will

I promise
I promise
When you call me
I promise
I promise I will

*I promise everything it stated here. I be there for you until you don't need me. Until i not in this world!

I really wanna see you grow big! Like to 30years old! Cause you always be my closer brother till we die!

Sorry, is all my fault! I pampered you too much! I try to buy for you all the things you want.

I don't want you to have no money always and don't want you to not eat!

I won't bloody allow that either, i can sacrifice $10 if i left that! Just for you!

I can don't eat, but i won't allow you!

You always be my brother! My closer brother!

2 times you cry for me!

And bloody hell, who fucking look down on him. I shall kill them!

I'm sorry! Really sorry, becoz i didn't call you.

When i'm angry you will always do something to please me. Buy for me food and send me to my hse.

Because i'm hungry! Making you wait till 2 hours to 5 hours. You will never leave!

I know i always late!

Making you a perfect boy, just for you to find your perfect girlfriend!

Buy for you things cause you didn't have those things.

Lie-ing to you "Give me your wallet and i will put money inside your wallet!"

Always don't care what my uncle and my brother say about you!

And don't care what People say about you!
Always never tell my gf, whether i given him money or things. Or not she will get angry. ;<

Sighs, i think write till long but still got others! Many more, i don't wanna state!

I just wanna be honest, don't wanna be selfish! I'm sorry! :<

We are who we are! :D

2011-03-30T02:26:00.000+08:00

*I want you to love me, like I'm a hot guy! Keep thinking of me, doing what you like. So girl forget about the world cause it's gonna be me and you tonight. I wanna make your bed for you, then imma make you swallow your pride! ;x

Want you to make me feel like I'm the only boy in the world.
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love.
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart.
Only boy. in the world...
Like I'm the only one that's in command
Coz I'm the only one who understands how to make you feel like a lady.
Like I'm the only one that you'll ever love!
Like I'm the only one who knows your heart! Only one... ♥

Hot and dangerous! Lols! You better don't mess with me! Got my Allah in my necklaces! ;D

Tonight we gonna HARD HARD HARD HARD! Just like the world like US US US US!

OMG! My heart fucking clear all the hurts!

Phew...

DJ TURNING UP!

I love you! I gonna make you the ONLY GIRL IN THE WORLD!

Got the Sex Eye on my eye!

LOLS!

Okays, i gonna turn in soon. So i shall update soon! ;D

Takecare world!

Ps : *Randolph coming back! YEAH!

I miss him! :D

Everything i do, i do it for you two! FUCKING YOU TWO! But no ones caring it back! FUCK!

2011-03-28T20:10:00.002+08:00

Can life just be normal? I need a normal life. You are closer to me, yet you care for other more!

We should put a line better? Return my things?

I'm not trying to ask for my money back. Because your joy and happiness is all there.

Thanks for the time at most EVERY time, you were with me. I'm so happy on those moments!

When i got in or i'm out! You never even take serious about me!

You asked me to always SMILE! I did what you ask.

And yet i know what is like when i RELEASED. Even everyone never care's about me!

And not even you! I always care for you, i feel i need to share the luxury on money all to you!

I don't want you suffer like how i used to suffer. Because i just wanna make you happy!

Don't wanna you be sad or crying like that time. I'm sorry for that time.

But what i actually thought now is i feel our Relationship just from 100%

when ur closer to me and now is like 20%!

I hate seeing you never eat! I hate people looking down on you!

Thanks by me, i now gonna be honest to people. I gonna express how i feel!

You just don't know how i feel!

I don't want anything, i just want you! I just need you like he do! I tried everything to make you happy!

I lost everything okays! Love is as fragile as a glass! Why choose to hurt me instead?!

Hold on to you! Because i don't wanna lose any battlefield of love!

This is stupid, i know i'm stupid fighting over for a girl?!

Ya that night was the most happy day! I love it! I like it!

Crying over you, floating like tsunami. I never blame you! Because cry while you can.

Because after that gonna be your happiest day in your life. Expressing what i feel and what you feel.

Thanks! Thanks everything. Ya, i still treat you like a queen! Carrying your bag around, let you hold me! Touch me! Sleeping beside me. I feel so happy!

Thanks. But i know your not going back to me. Because you say me and him pushes you.

Sighs, i just don't know what i'm saying!

No ones care me after i Released! Stupid!

Nevermind, let me be alone. The emo-boyster!

Emo! Always.

Just now when to Camp back, everything hits normal! :> Get to talk to Charles Sir, he interview me.
But i request to have half day, i felt tired okay! I slept like 2 hours! Damn tired can!
I didn't get to eat at Cookhouse, cause my kaki's watch hes smart4! WTH!
But i didn't felt hungry, i keep on thinking of something. Until i forget and don't wanna eat! ;<
WTF wrong with me! Please someone! Sighs.
So me and my kaki went to Bedok, hit the Bedok Point! That new shopping centre at Bedok.
Damn fuck! No movie! Shit! :<

So after that around 6pm he went back to Camp, as he wants to watch his favourite show. -,-!!
And i went to Bedok South just to find someone ear, i really wanna express everything out!
I wish that person is the person who i wanna tell. But that person didn't care me now!
Sighs, care when i'm inside. But when i'm outside. I no person in that person heart anymore!
;< FUCK EVERYTHING!
I'M GOING DOWN! LOW DOWN!

I WANT SOMEONE CARE ME MUCH LIKE HOW I CARE FOR THAT PERSON!
I NEED YOUR LOVE! PROMISE ME WILL YOU! WE WILL MAKE A BETTER LOVE!
I LOVE YOU! & WILL MAKE YOU THE ONLY GIRL IN THE WORLD!

On the first page of our story, the future seemed so bright!
Then this thing turned out so evil, i don't know why i'm still surprised.
But you'll always be my loving and care person, even though you've lost your mind.
Now there's gravel in our voices glass is shattered from the fight in this tug of war, you'll always win! Even when i'm right cause you feed me money from your hand.. ;x
With violent words and empty threats and it's sick that all these battles are what keeps me satisfied.. Sighs... I try to run but i don't wanna ever leave, till our love are growing up! ;< Deep with all our memories!!!
Without you, i'm nothing, i'm so lost, hug me!! ;<
Then tell me how ugly i am, but that you'll always love me
then after that, shove me, in the aftermath of the destructive path that we're on.
Cause we're that lucky together, we move mountains, let's not make mountains out of hole mountains.
I may have lie to you many times, i'm starting to lose count..
I'm sorry.
But together, we'll live forever, we found the Love Story Fountain!
Our love is crazy, we're nuts.
I'm in my fucking mind, without you, i will think too much! Sighs..

"I'm sorry people! Sighs. Fuck life, Love Hurts!"

2011-03-27T08:05:00.000+08:00

You let me win, you let me ride. You let me rock, you let me slide!
& When they looking, you let me hide. Defend my honour, protect my pride!
The good advice I always hated but looking back it made me greater..
You always told me forget the haters. Just get my money, just get my weight up!
Know when I’m lying, know when Im crying. It’s like you got it down to a science..
Why am I trying, no you aint lying. I tried to fight it, back with defiance..
You make me laugh, you make hoarse from yelling at you!
At getting at you, picking up dishes and throwing them at you..
Why are you speaking when no one asks you!

What are we doing?! Could you see through me? Cause you say Boyster and I say “Who me!”
You say “No you” and I say “Fuck you!”
Then you start dressing, and you start leaving. & I start crying and I start screaming..!
The heavy breathing but what’s the reason. Always get the reaction you wanted..
I’m actually fronting. I’m asking you something. Answer this question! Class is in session...
Tired of letting passing progression. Control my mind, Capture my soul...
Ok you’re right, just let it go. Okay you ride it, its in the can.
Before I played it, you knew my hand...
You can turn a free throw into a goal! Got the peep hole to my soul!

Happy 1 Year 9 Months

2011-01-14T18:24:00.000+08:00

Happy 1 Year 9 months Hubby!

Even the whole world throw you down,

I will never do that.

Sorry for making you feel hurt.

I didn't know what had I been doing recently.

I love you hubby.

Please stay strong for me.

You're always irreplaceable.<3

It our 1 year 8 months baby boy

2010-12-14T06:59:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 1 YEAR MONTHS Baby boy!

This is the last picture that we took together.
But I know we will be taking news one soon right!
Faster come back from your training and be with me every single mintue!
No matter how wonderful other guys are,
In my home it can only fit you in.
You'll be back to celebrate our 2 years together right?
Don't get paranoid so easily my baby boy.
I love you more then anything else in the world.
Maybe I might had change in some ways.
Believe it or not,I always love you.

I'm heading to bed already,
Good nights love <3
And please don't think too much !!!! (:
Lastly,you faster come back lah !
You know you not here I cannot get used !!!!
Okay, always your baobao fei fei !
LOVE YOU!!!!

-Signing off,your girlfriend.

HAppy 1 Year 7 Months ! You miss this month my boy :(

2010-11-14T16:43:00.000+08:00

That cute face of yours!

I'm his girlfriend here anyway people.
HAPPY 1 YEAR 7 MONTHS ANNIVERSARY!
Come back and celebrate with me Bibi ! :(
When are you coming back my boy ? :(
Wo hao xiang hao xiang ni !
I just wanna you to be here safe and sound.

I promise to be a better girlfriend when you're back.
I will learn to be more attentive to you.
Shouldn't neglect you so much.
& I will let you feel like you're the only boy in the whole world that I love.
As what you always said.
Come back now ! :"(
Joey love you, I will be here waiting for you.

$ Matters. ;|

2010-11-07T04:28:00.001+08:00

Shot me and i be under th earth.
And i be gone for once without you.

5 weeks straight in th month of October i didn't turn up for Ph.
Sorry bro's sis's friends's. Damn sad can! :<

"Sacrifice $ is worst than sacrifice for a person. Maybe i should stop everything now, and just continue working like a mad dog! When i have $ in my savings, than i shall turn back time. Look for th 1 who treat you better! Becoz when you talk about $, everyone will disappear even your girlfriend/boyfriend! But i know on...e person who will never disappear, that's th person will live t th fullest with you till th end!"

Yes, this is what i post at Fb. Chatted with Shine, sis. Ya she teaches me, whenever you talk t your friends or t whoever even your girlfriend/boyfriend. They will disappear from you.
But once i caught th person who treat me better, i bet i live a fullest life with that person t th fullest.
Because when people talk about money, lending money and giving money. All runaway.
Because they scared that we won't pay back. Ya! And when we going die? Ang bao given t us?
What's that mean? WTF!

I know i can do my best, on working hard t earn money! And yes i'm not Lazy at all.
As i stated Sacrifice money is worst than Sacrifice for a person. I make sure i gonna work real hard on Monday. Start of th week! When i have money, i bet i will RUNAWAY, AWAY from th people who look down on me and who no heart wanna lend me money. I want have th better life for myself. And i make sure one day Karma will hit you Twice! Cause god knows what you doing! Whether it's dirty money or good money! I'm not pointing t anyone. But wait and see! HELL WAITING FOR YOU!

Maybe i should learn? Maybe i should learn t save money serious shit! So that i don't wanna let people look down on me or whatsoever!

Th one who treat me th best, i gonna Love you till th end! Who always be there for me or who is willing t sacrifice money for me! Don't say Parents. Like they say, you help me once i gonna help you twice. Yes i gonna do that! Okays, i gonna turn in soon. I'm bloody tired! Goodnight peoples! :D Love love t you, whoever treat me th best!

-Peace off, Boyster.

Your, Lady GaGa! :D

2010-11-06T15:14:00.000+08:00

Saturday, 6 Nov.
Time pass fast! It's th new month, damn!
Gonna work hard t earn more money. Now still stuck in th hotel! Bamn!
I swear tmrw i going back home! It sick t stay here, i wanna go clubszxc tonight!
Anyone? ;(

Look at this photo's! How could Lady GaGa so cool on her Halloween Costume!
Damn! I'm in love with her. ;)

"Tu eres una rosa eres un clavel, eres una caca embarrada en un papel. Mi amor mi vida, mi caca podrida. Mi sol de verano, mi pedo atorado."

It's mean "Sadness strikes and no ones is around but who cares i've always lived like this. I hate being like this but i hate even more being commanded by you. I know that there's no fix to this problem so i dont try any harder."

In this world full of Selfish people!

2010-11-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

I know i have been harsh t people and towards everyone, whether is friends or brother or sister.
Yes i know i have t control my temper, little bit jokes also i can't take it.
But th matter of facts that my attitude is always so fcuked up!
I can't even relax and talk things out t people. Always jumped t anger.
I'm sorry, i try t relax and talk things out. And not t anger.

What did i do these few days? Answer's are all below.

2 Days at Bencoolen Hotel 81. Didn't went home..
Monday starting t work a Normal Job. T earn money. Sigh, i don't even know i can tahan anot.
Pimple coming out like none other people business! Damn, really have t wash my face everyday.
Didn't went t club for 1 week already. Been drinking non-stop 2 days at Boat Quay and Cuppage Disco.

Girlfriend working hardly just t support till i get my first pay.
I know i'm not th Boyster last time, i used t have $$$$ all along. Lending people like just 5mins transfer.
Just like that, now when i no money people never even stick t me like how i have money.
FRIENDS come and go, like how i work and never work.
If really i buying friends, just say it! If i'm rich, i rather be alone. No girlfriend at all.
Promised D's that i be Bachelor in th future. Maybe i'm not right t say that? Hahas.

Well, i shall update soon. Picture's are all below. Hmm, i gonna play facebook and dota. ;)
Thanks for th view! And help me click on my Nuffnang Ads! Thank you!

-,- -,- (.),(.) see this! Big right? LOL!

2010-11-05T21:06:00.001+08:00

2 days straight at Hotel 81 Bencoolen. Didn't went home.
Phone never charged. People wanna find me, find me at Facebook. Okays? < ;

Monday gonna start Sales Assistant work at Vivo. Damn! I long time never feel this type of feeling already.
Must be damn tired! Rarr, alright shall upload pictures for th last 3 days. ;)

You shouldn't write till like that.

2010-11-04T00:39:00.000+08:00

A sense of respect, you like against people who is dead?

Ann Tan Hui Ping, you as my friend. But people already dead, you say until like.

Here's what she wrote :

In any case if you haven't heard of this name, he is the 19-year-old boy killed at a Halloween Party at Downtown East few days ago. Being the usual me, I tried to find him on Facebook and see what kind of person he is. And tada, I found something else.

I found a 'group' created for him so that people can post on the wall and sort of appreciate him, blah blah. As usual, people are posting on that wall saying how great he was, saying how sad they feel upon hearing the news even though they do not know him. I even found a TRIBUTE for him, there were pictures of his secondary school class photo, some photos at a wedding, at events, with friends and such.

In Remembrance of Darren Ng Wei Jie (Republic Polytechnic) Please 'like' this page if you know Darren in some way or the other.. We'll really miss you darren..

Lol, I really think that I may sound like I'm asking for troubles by saying this - Stop the hypocrisy people. He's gone so why the fuck create something that he will not get to see? Will you, a random stranger, try and get to know what a good friend he is if he was alive? NO.

You will never get yourself to know someone for no fucking reason. And the reason why people, strangers, onlookers are posting there telling people they are sad or telling people how great he was, IS BECAUSE HE'S DEAD. And there is no point.

There is no fucking point telling other people 'He's a great friend' after he's dead. It's all for SHOW. For people to display their crocodile tears simply because he died in a tragic way. I mean no offense to the victim or his family, just targetting the so-called 'friends' or even just hi-bye friends of his. Probably people will go 'OH that guy, I seen him before in school! He seems quite nice, he's friendly!'

Duh, of course you will say that, he's dead. How bad can you go on a dead person?

Do you think if he was alive, people will be thinking of him every second and minute, thinking how great a person he was? NO. What a load of crap, 'We'll miss you'? Only when he's gone will people start to think and miss him, what about when he was alive?

Cut the crap, we all won't cherish what is in front of us until he's gone. This is nature. So why act like you really treasure and cherish every single fucking moment with him only after he's gone? Just admit it - we are all hypocrites.

What's more, why is he killed you may ask?
From source: CNN

Mr Ng, a Republic Polytechnic student, had been attacked and hacked several times by a group of men at about 6pm on Saturday.

He and two friends were believed to have been involved in a staring incident with the group earlier.

Childish much? Staring? Lol........

If you were his hi-bye friend, will you go and talk more to him if he was alive? NO DUH.
It's because he's DEAD and you go 'I'm so sad to hear this news, RIP.' No fuck you, you believe me if I were to say people will not give a fuck if he died out of a car accident compared to being murdered by a bunch of TEENS? (does it matter if they are mats or chinese? Lol)

To those strangers saying that they feel sad for him,
you tell me, if you were to go to his funeral, and in front of you is a corpse, a dead person you have never met or talked to or knew anything about him expect for the fact that he is murdered,

will you feel sad at all?

Yea maybe I'm the one being heartless.
Or am I just being honest?

Ohman, people are scary.

ps: I am targetting those who DO NOT know the victim well/do not know him at all. Those who are not genuinely sad for him yet acting as if they are, it just disgusts me.

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I mean as in, like i say. Don't care what people say, they are their problem. What's wrong people being honest and heartless. It's their problem! :D Peace people! Its hurt people feeling ann.. Please understand.

Lust don't last! Bound th love, people!

2010-10-31T14:15:00.001+08:00

At th lines, i'll hold you. At th battle cry, i'll hold you.
At every shot, i'll hold you. and at every word, i'll hold you!

There's a revolution here, underway. So when their hate finds you.
You look at them in th eye and say :
"I'm beautiful in my way, cause god makes no mistakes. I'm on th right track! Baby i was born in this way!"

We got enough love in our hearts, t take all their hate. So when their army comes, you look them in th eye and say : "I stand in nobody's way! But yet i suffer each day, i'll fight with honor. I was fucking born in this way!"

Happy Halloween t everyone's!
Friday th 29th.
Drinking!

Wanted t go Jeremy event's but in th end th club was small. And th enviroment so like Zzzz..
So we move t Boat Quay instead and drink instead. Before that alot of quarrel's and misunderstood!
I'm sorry my D's! Not that i wanna lie, is th time is not right. I'm not treating you like a dog either, i know i can't plan properly. I should tell you earlier if i'm doing something. I will mark your words : "I don't wanna make you wait!" ;> But i take things for granted! I'm sorry. Your not a toy either! Your my brother, one special brother who i always love! Don't angry okays.

Drank at Jab 1 with my Girlfriend, Daniel, Laising, Eddie and crew! Drink until i can't even control my emotions. Damn sucks la th feeling! After drinking when t Geylang, frog porridge there. OMG! You gotta hear this people! This group of people, friend of Eddie. 2 person eat Frog porridge going t $70bucks! They like eating family feast like that, i can't imagine and i was fucking shock serious shit! For th first time, people eat and drink like spend over th limit! Easy say! Hahas. Next time Eddie, if your drinking or going eat. Please tell me earlier so i can go other places hahahahahas. I not that bad lahs! <;

Aftermath, Eddie friend send Laising home. And my Girlfriend and Daniel hit t my Crib!
"They both are really SMALL KIDS!" I need t become their babysiter! Damn!! Put their things put anyhow.
Especially th Daniel, hahas. So cute!

Saturday th 30th,
Drinking again!

Girl went t work at around 12pm. Me and Daniel is still sleeping, after awake. We went down t buy food as we are damn super hungry! After buy we bring back our food t my house. After that around 5pm, prepare/bathe and straight bus t Far East. Meet up my Girlfriend, Laising, Cycena and Tavis. Have our dinner at Far East Plaza, damn sickening CHINA WOMANS! After that went t smoke, Tavis left first as he got work. And my Girlfriend last minute got work so she went t Bugis with th girls. Me and Daniel mrt down t Bugis hit some arcades. Hahas! I finish up my $2bucks of token, but Daniel didn't. LOLS?! After that we walk from Bugis t her work place. And meet up with her. After that we took a cab t Cuppage t Tavis work place and start t DRINK, DRANK, DRUNK! Th place like Resort and Neverland. But there more HIGH CLASS then Resort and Neverland. Want t diao flowers t th guys must atleast $50bucks sia. Resort and Neverland $10 bucks got right?! Wahahahahas! How i wish i'm those guys, atleast a $200bucks - $1k i earn. But in th end must sleep with those customers WTF! =X

Aftermath, we was too drunk! We took a cab t hougang, Girlfriend want t take her stuff from her house. And Daniel went back t Sengkang. Home sweet home! ;)

Ta da... Done with my blog! So sorry didn't update! As i'm lazy like a pig! Hahahahahas.
I admit that i'm FAT! But as far as i know, i'm taller than you! So stfu! ;)

Like i'm th only boy in th world ;(

2010-10-28T14:33:00.000+08:00

Can life be th dream that i ever want? No!
That's only a dream not reality anyway. When it comes t Friends/Brothers/Sisters, they gone where?
Gone t hell. You know when you got problem, you will share with your loves one.
But they intend t hear and comeout from another ear. This is totally bull-shits! Hate this type of friends.
When they got problem, they come find you and you will help them!
So you know what you gonna do? Keep low profile! Don't contact, until they contact you.
This is what i gonna do! Fuck this _|_

Want you to make me feel like I'm th only Boy in the world. Like I'm th only one that you'll ever love.
Like I'm th only one who knows your heart. Only Boy in the world...

Tonight is your night. ;x

2010-10-23T08:41:00.000+08:00

Hey brother, i know your inside. And wanting t go out. I missing you. Missing all we done as a brother. :< Idk, whether your inside or in Army. But have t go ask your sis. But whatever you do inside, please be safe and just listen t whatever they say. And comeout safely. :> Hope t see you when you comeout. And hope you remember me as your brother. Ah fan aka Ah Han. <3

Just came back from Parklane. Movie, Paranormal Activity 2 at Cathay. :) Nice show! Wonderful effects. Heart-attacks! Later going out again. Fcuk die me, going sleep soon. Bye world. Update later.

Bad Dreams Fcuk!

2010-10-22T07:40:00.000+08:00

Coz when i'm with that person, i am thinking of you. What you would do if you were th one who was spending th night. I wish that i was looking into it. But you're th best and yes i do regret. How i could let myself let you go. Now th lesson's learned. I touched it i was burned. I think you should know. That person kiss...ed my lips, i taste your mouth. He pulled me in, I WAS DISGUSTED WITH MYSELF! ;< BAD DREAMS! FCUK!

Just came back from Hougang, penny house there. :> So cute, where we are all couple accept penny. >,< LOLS!

I guess time and time i should just fcuking leave you! Cause your just a pieces of shits! I don't wanna meet you nor see your face. Guess what? Watching my loverboy more is better than you! And please fcuk off from my life! Your disgusted serious shit! Thanks for th everything, but not for th love. I don't love you! You should just find other person better than me.

Erase-ing th awful memory out of my brains. Now i realise that someone that i dote alot, is better than you! Atleast people give me good attention when i'm with that person! ;) Thanks, i learn my lesson.

Li lick k lick . :x

2010-10-20T12:47:00.000+08:00

You're th best and yes i do regret. He kissed my lips, i taste your mouth. He pulled me in, i was disgusted with myself! How i could let myself let you go. Now th lesson's learned. I touched it i was burned. Cause when i'm with him i am thinking of you! What you would do if you were th one who was spending th night. Looking into your eyes, will you walk through and bust in th door.. Take me away, with no more mistakes. Cause in your eyes i like t stay....

I'm off t hougang (:

Will update more soon.

Just a quote :D

2010-10-19T11:00:00.000+08:00

There’s something i wanna say, something that i’ve been holding back.
Can’t let it go another day, let me start by saying that.
Nothing, means more than the truth.
And truth is that i realize, love is fading from your eyes.
Don’t know how it came to this, but we gonna get it fixed tonight.
Cus nothing, is worth losing you.

Tell me what could the problem be, that’s got you drinking way too much.
What could it be about us? Don’t you tell me not right now, i can’t let it go.

What can i do to help you see, that there’s no need for jealousy or insecurities.
I’ll do anything you want, you can even have th password t my phone.

Because nothing should come between us.
Trust in me....

I just got freak, freak freak baby!

2010-10-18T14:58:00.000+08:00

(17-10-2010) Sunday.

Baby its all good. When I look at you and i see that you.
Made it through everything. After all of the ups and downs.
We figured it out, defending it all out. And I will know how t ride it out.

Happy birthday, my lover boy. Daniel, Teo Chek Wee! :D

(I choose this picture, because you look more smart, handsome, cute! :D)

(And i know when you grow older, you look more AH ZAI!)

(Can't believe that they said, all my ahdi's. Daniel is still th cutest! I said "Yucks!" Hahahahahahs.)

Achieve in life, build more money. Save it! Save it for th future.
You gain something, afterall th words i teaches you. Please learn from it.
No matter how hard in life, you got t just achieve something.
Don't bother about people, because seriously they are damn fcuking losers!
They don't even know how t spell, "P.A.I.S.E.H".

You teaches me alot of things too. I learn from it! :D
And after all th fight and up and downs. I still be there for you, whenever you need me! (;

I'm happy, thanks t you! :>

2010-10-16T13:47:00.000+08:00

Don't forget t use up your Charming Charisma t th person before th person hates you!

And don't always lie t your love ones. They tend t think your a coward. :)

*So i hope you can keep a secret. ;>

Thanks! I'm so happy!

Lady GaGa!

2010-10-14T11:24:00.000+08:00

I'm a Lady GaGa fans! :)

Let me share picture's of her.

This one is my favourite!

She so cool! :>

Th night is young and so are we.

2010-10-14T11:07:00.000+08:00

First of all i wanna say to, Ms JoeyTLY.

Happy 1 Year 6 Months Monthsary! :>

Below are picture's! I re-edit. ;X

And thanks for saying me, cute! ;)

Love you as much as you love me! I know i didn't care, but i do care abit. :)

This 1 year 6 months, is like photo-copy paper. Fast machine. Lols!

Always wanted you t learn from your mistakes. But it takes times.

Changes of you will come soon. Hahas! ;)

And please take off your extention! Doesn't matter with Long or Short hair.

I can hold on t you for long, but promise me something. Convert as a Muslim/Islam from you heart, not a forced! If married is a forced, then love is forced too. ;>

Hope you understand it. And last but not least! I love you!! <3 x100000 ....

You now sleeping! I already awake, time for me t wait for you text and i will go changed and prepare.

Faster girlgirl, wake up! :D

Is not because of th promises.

2010-10-12T13:54:00.002+08:00

Because promise are meant t be broken. I'm in a straight world, you wanna love me can. But into relationship all i can't. Because i don't exists in th world of your world. And i already told i gonna married Joey. So anything please settle with me, don't go post anything about me or whatsoever! And yes, i damn miss him, i damn love him. So you jealous? For what fuck! You say u can't leave me, ya i lust with him before so? I treated him like a small brother before. Then no matter what every Saturday and Sunday i must follow my brother go his "Club" just t see your face, NO! I want my freedom, i want my fun. If those guys are aftering me, so let it be. Don't get jealous or what. And yes i only promise you when i get married with Joey, if anything wrongs t us or we divorce of what i be back t your life again. No! It not gonna happen. So please state th fact right. Yes i slept with you before doesn't mean "I LOVE YOU" -.-! Then i slept with D's before i must love him, how many times i slept with my brother's before? They are straights, they just need brother care. I can do that, but in this type of things i can't. I'm sorry. There's are guys out there is better than me

I wouldn't wanna bother people anymore, and i bloody hate you. 7am in th morning people is sleeping you come and see awake and talk t you? What is this? You keep on stalking me? Control me? How i can accept this type of things, if you Love me? Then let nature take course! Love can't be force by people, you are forcing that promises we make, understand? Even Joey doesn't force me in anything, she's my girlfriend she never even force me in anything. So get this in mind please.

I will post more, if anything comes up. Tyvm! :D

Just run away from these lies. Back t yesterday safe tonight.
I feel the sun creeping up like tick-tock, I'm trying to keep you in my head but if not.

We'll just keep running from tomorrow with our lips locked,

You got me begging....

Keep telling myself it not worth it!

2010-10-09T17:51:00.000+08:00

Hey there D's, 8 more days t your Officially big day. I hope you should get Celebrated.

I miss you, yes i miss you like no other people! It's like going 8 months? We haven meet up.

Sorry for all th fight, quarrel and other's. I know i too harsh and control t you.

Wish you very happy and no matter what no one can low down you. Rememeber what i promised?

Hehes! <; I'm so happy whenever you msn with me and chat. So whatever it is, need anything help feel free t sms or call me. I will be more happy! I know your busy, but i too harsh and angry you don't wanna meet me.

So yes now i understand already, hmm. Hope everything okay with you and ur family.

Anyway, takecare.

Keep telling myself that its not worth it, I already know I dont deserve it.
But if its from you I dont mind Hurting. This is my perfect nightmare.
So when will I wake up and scream! Sometimes we fight, Sometimes I cry.
Why dont I just tell him goodbye, Sometimes I should but sometimes I dont.
Build up the strength to say that its wrong, Sometimes I hate sometimes I love.
Sometimes I hurt, Sometimes I dont. Sometimes I wait for him t change.
But its okay I just got t pay. ;<

Later will be going Ph, how many days and months didn't step in t Ph. Miss those clubs! Yeah today gonna hit it!

Meeting J, at hougang point. So i gonna hurry bathe and prepare. <;

Alright, please help me click LIKE, and my ads! Tyvm! ;D

BOOM, I'D CAN BE A FREAK! ;>

2010-10-05T06:18:00.000+08:00

Look that Boyster, alot of people say that he has changed alot! And some of them said, th Boyster we know is not like this and that.

I don't know how somehow i changed alot. Regarding about relationship and all. I'm sorry people!

Especially t Gena and Yangyang. I didn't know about th full Storys, i come in straight t conclusion. Didn't bother t think either and start t quarrel with them. Hmm, okays. And t Vevian, i won't failed t become your brother! Vevian, Crystal, Gena, Adonica, Tingting, Reena, Xiaoxiao. This few sister! I respect alot! And i'm sorry for my behavior of talking and attitude. :<

I can't tell the difference between puppy love and true love anymore, because i'm blind.

Dynamite :>

2010-09-29T10:01:00.000+08:00

This 2 days down with fever, temperature is 38.1. Sick as hell, flu, headache! And throat is Hot like redness. Swollen throat. Damn i think i smoke too much. >,< . Please recover soon, i wanna find work asap! I don't want t stay at th Esso. The damn boss is fcuktard! I told i really sick. And she told me she dont believe? Wtf! And i got mc all. Fuck her!

I can't wait t enter and see th new Bedok Shopping Centre call Bedok Mall. :>

Here's a picture of it.

Yesterday when t Marine Parade take mc, actually wanted t go Bedok. But when we was at Bedok poly at 12pm. They ask us t come back around 1.30pm so brother have no patience, so hit t Marine Parade t go do his hair. And the girl said t come tmrw as alot of customer. What reason, bullshits! So we walk-ed from Katong t Marine Parade Polyclinic. Aftermath, when t Parkway Parade walk around and wait for Kaden. Eat at Banquet. But i didn't eat anything, because i haven Throat Sickness. I can't eat and drink. :<

So when t Marine Parade Macdonald, t seat and talk. Saw Beverly and th gangs. Hmm, missed those times.

Nevermind, around 7pm take bus at Katong. Number 40. Hit Chai Chee, and i fall asleep all th way. I was sleepy serious! Eat those Medicines, doctor gave me. Arghs, i don't like medicine it sucks! Taste sucks! :<

Alright, i just eaten my Medicines. And time for me t get rest again. :<

Hit me up or text me alright people! :>

There is some space for our love, but your everything i don't like..

2010-09-22T18:14:00.000+08:00

What more post i wanna post abt you, nothing either. I might still love you, but as long as you change your attitude that i don't like. I don't wanna be like last time, and YES! i do put first in friends. Cause i miss all of my friends. Brothers 1st priorty, We was once 1 year 5month, you think i wanna let go that fast? No! I wanna live t th fullest with you but not on this state! I don't like. I just don't like, i wanna be th boyfriend who can earn money and support girlfriend, not on that other opp. You said you not gonna bother about me and what else?

But seems that you were th one who post it first.

Just came back from work, i am superb tired, really! Whole body aching again! Arghs...

Tak boleh tahan ar! ;(

I go get changed and bathe. So i will smell good. :D

Will post more later.

If I had nothing would you want me to stay, You keep your money, take it all away!

2010-09-22T06:20:00.000+08:00

You think material's the reason i came. You keep your money, take it all away!

I don't your love and i don't want your revenge!

I don't want your love and all your lover's revenge, anymore!

I don't want your drama anymore!

I don't wanna be friends.

Je veux ton amour, Et je veux ta revanche....

Je veux ton amor, Et je veux ta revenge!

Finally i can put an end t it today. A night of reminiscing th past memories. Almost can't remember why we parted. I realised i walked so many years and now i'm back t th start. Not avoiding any unsettling rumours.

But gradually we are drifting apart till i have enough of you? Idk yet. Maybe you wanted me, a long time ago t distance myself from you. Th money you use on me and th things you buy for me at that moment is so thoughtful. It accompanied me while i think back on our memories. Just like every love story has an ending point. It can trap a person and still move forward. Loving till this pathetic state, You are satisfied. But why do i just want t cry?

I admit that Love is sometimes pitiably cheap! Being together for some years and we return to square one.

Keeping my pride, admiting that i was once prepared t be hurt, prepared t be a servant for you.

" Guys only love you when you have value or you're new. That how low class some guys can be. "

How about girls, do they even know what guys suffer? And please state correctly. It's how low class some girls can be. I define for some girls that is low class, they can be very attitude most of th time! Attitude doesn't even have a value. Girls love t spend on shopping, cute cute stuff? That is all unnecessary things. In law, they said they need higher lvls of educations. But do girls need certificate do t any jobs? No! They don't need any certificate, either way they need looks and shape of your body. Even girls didn't went t primary school nor secondary school still can find work, do guys can ? No.

For now i wanna have a peaceful life, work hard earn more money. I don't want t get any matters involve.

Will be on Facebook, Blog, Twitter and Msn for a short time. :)

As i promised, some people for their Birthday present and Christmas Exchanges. You guys better save money now! :x hahas.

Omg, i can't believe how many friends of mine were so happy i am single. Yes i know guys!

But no matter what i will think about you guys, i never wouldn't forget.

But for S, hmm.. wondering why you want t be with me. But we shall see okays. :)

I going t have some rest now, 9am got work! FML. Work Hard, Spend Later! ;x

Nights peoples! :D

I love you! :|

2010-09-17T06:52:00.001+08:00

I once told myself before, that love is hurt! But before continue anything, i would like t reply on behalf of my girlfriend blog post.

Which girl wouldn't want t be happy? How about guys?

I just don't understand what you want care from me and concern. I just don't know.

Everything is mix up. I'm not letting th love down, between us! And that is true! I mean it!

You can't change, then don't change. I'm not forcing you or what. Is just motivate you t changed?

Any difference! YES! So don't think that i force you is matter of fact, i just wanna motivate you t change.

I understand everything. Tyvm! ;D

Everything in love, you need care and concern. Yes this is true! But 1 thing i realise, i hate girl's with attitude, keep nagging like no tmrw! Stop it! Should i just ask th same old questions again and again?

Then why in th first place you accept your boyfriend!! I just hoping that some guys can learn from here.

I don't wanna see guys get hurt! It's not guys fault afterall.. Sames goes t th girls, i know!

For money wise, i know guys got legs and hands they can work. Obvious! But one true thing is when you force your boyfriend t go work, don't keep playing childish by saying Boyfriend, today don't go work okay! Must accompany you! This is worst t th worst! You expect guys t go work, but end up you pull him away by not going work!

And for sex! Usually guys will have this horny thinking by saying, girl i wanna it now! But now GUYS CHANGED! Don't force guys t do sex and end up you get pregnant. It's not guys fault either! Then why in th first place you accepted that sex?!

This is knowledge and please use brains! I'm not talking about anyone, just giving some advice!

I don't wanna guys end of th day REGRET! That's all.

Maybe i have changed, thanks for those who says that! (:

I'm th old Boyster! Don't worry.

When your emo, or moodless? Just take some time of yourself by going out t th beach, with your friends or brothers. In this way, you can share, think and solve every problem. Have some freedom towards yourself. Don't let people control you! You control your own life. Okays! (x

I'm happy with my life now. No more emo's? No more anger? Even if i quarrel with my girlfriend, i can settle it as fast as possible. Thanks t those who give me advice and my matured thinkings!

Well, below are th pictures which i take during th Hari Raya Bazaar.

(Damn, see my Eyebrow, i shave it! Ugly, i know!)

End! Will update more pic's. (:

Your words, so nice till i wanna SLAP YOU!

2010-09-14T11:25:00.000+08:00

Your judging me? When you don't even know me well.

Wtf!

So what if Joey, my ex or soon t be patch? Is single?

Does that even concern about you..?

Bernice Chovelle Should have done it long ago babe. (:

(Do you even know us well?!)

Joey CanIbeaheartbreaker ‎respond : bernice I always believe he will change? it hurts

Bernice Chovelle He wont. Trust me. Can see easily. Me as an outsider can see how is he like from th way he treated you. This type of guy, totally not worth it lah. Total trash. Wasting human resources. No offense. But he dont deserve you or even breathing in th air on Earth.

(I treated her bad?! How about this type of bitch of you is totally not worth either! Your th trash! Yours wasting time and human resources too! AWW, totally no offense either! But you don't even deserve t be born?! LOLS!)

Joey CanIbeaheartbreaker Girl you reacting more big than me! Sighs, i dont know. I seriously feel so numb..

Bernice Chovelle Move on!!! Cause i hate this type of jerks! He should reflect on himself. If he dont, he's total trash. Dont bother bout him anymore. Live your own life th way you want. Just move on. Move on move on move on move on move on~~~

(I'm not this type of JERKS! You should reflect to your ownself! And don't bother us again?! Live your own life with your BOYFRIEND! MOVE ON BITCH! MOVE ON!)

Damn, i hate this type of bitch! Your once a ***! And now you bother about our life?

Knn, own life don't wanna settle and you kepo on me and my girlfriend life?

GET A LIFE LA BITCH!

STOP BOTHERING! AND STOP TALKING NONSENSE ABT ME!

YOU DON'T EVEN KNOW ME? AND YOU CAN JUDGE TILL LIKE THAT?

DAMN!!!!

Forever be with you. < /3

2010-09-12T07:59:00.000+08:00

Hey, baby girl. Pretty, you're my love!

All night, i can't sleep with my thoughts of you going on always in my head, you know?

Wanna hear you say you love me with that heavenly voice.

I'm going crazy girl, i do need you!

You see, it's like without you it's just not right. Through thick and think, we are still tight!

All for you, all day and all night. One by one, just can't get your smiles out of my mind.

Definitely a love that's hard t find. Cause i am your life and you are mine!

Always girl, never forget that you can trust me.

I'll be there for you when you are sad or when you're happy!

Girl, i love you. You know it's true. Got t let my feelings show.

Girl you know it's all about you. Always and forever us two. You are th song that my hearts replaying.

Think about all th times that i'm with you,

we been thru and how we will always love right now and in th future cause our love is so true.

But when you are here by my side all you do is make me feel good.

This is so hard, i can't even go on without you.

Like a fool! Yeah!

Thinking you will be here when i open my eyes..

I'm sorry and I love you, forever!

I don't even freaking understand why i wrote this, it's like..

Sigh, maybe we are in this relationship for quite a long time.

I just can't let go. I love her too much.

But i just hate those time when we quarrel. I don't wan it!

She's that girl, who let me learn so much till i learn bad points about her..

Whatever it is, i gonna sleep right after this!

I'm too tired already. Frustrated! Whatever!

< /3 or < 3
< 3 you so much!

Bye world.

FUCK EVERYTHING! SERIOUS-SHIT!

2010-09-12T06:13:00.000+08:00

Fuck everything totally a bull-shit!

DO YOU FEEL SAD AND ANGRY?

WHEN YOUR GIRLFRIEND DOES THIS!

[ LOOK DOWN TO TH PICTURE! ]

CLICK IT!

CLICK AND SEE THE DATE!

I DIDN'T EDIT NOR CHANGE ANYTHING!

(FUCK JUST BECAUSE WE QUARREL AND YOU WANT MAKE THINGS BIG?!)

AND SHE TEXTED ME "YOU STARTED IT, YOU BLOCK ME FROM VIEWING YOUR WALL TOO. I DIDN'T START IT! I DIDN'T DELETE YOU, I WANNA IT BACK TO YOU BY BLOCKING YOU FROM VIEWING MY WALL ONLY! I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW BLOCK, I DIDN'T DELETE. I REMOVE LE, SETTINGS TILL NOW STILL LIKE THIS. AND DON'T SCOLD WITH ME WHEN YOU'RE TH ONE WHO LOVE ME BY BLOCKING ME FROM VIEWING YOUR WAL FIRST!)

DAMN FUCK! I HATE IT! I DON'T EVEN KNOW I GONNA BE SAD OR ANGRY!

DAMN FUCK! DAMN FUCK!

ARGHS! ARGHS! =\

Will you be there for me?

2010-09-10T11:16:00.001+08:00

Good morning my fellows viewers/friends.

Well today is 10 of September 2010.

Is on friday.

Boyster would like t wish all th muslim/malays and everyone out there!

SELAMAT HARI RAYA! (:

Remembering th past, is such a wonderful day! Your smile and talk brings me th smile of my day.

Remembered last year, same date, same day.

How are you recently?

Your smile and talk bring my smile of my day. Btw i'm not that well recently. Th whole world is deteriorating! People are starting t think in reverse. Realizing the one you love is running away...

Last night i was all th way dreaming, but today i'm fine!

It's puzzling, who would understand it? Is it a joke? God is playing on us..

It's so easy t let go? And you won't even know...

Happiness is at th next corner. Just say that you and i keep on going and everything will be better.

All th grief, please stay aside. But for th tears that we once fall.

Let them wet wound and dried up and faded by th sunlight.

Everyones needs this type of Encouragement. Let's run hand in hand.

We've said before, we won't leave until we see each other?

But i will wait every minute and every second for you until i grow old!

Our life goes on, time goes on.

No matter how painful, our life must still go on!!

No matter if you are going against th trend, you can still raise your head.

Let us go together and go pass all th trouble.

I know it's hard t concern, but we've concerned it before.

If one day sunshine, shines brightly in th sky after th rain.

A sign appears between us and suddenly we understand!!

IF THIS IS A MARATHON! THEN LET'S KEEP GOING TOGETHER!

*(11.17)

IMU!

Takecare! :(

My girlfriend is now sleeping like a pig.

Guess what i buy for her, lately! Haha, wait till she see! :DDD

Okay, i gonna end here. I didn't get t sleep well!

Later still need t go prayers again! Damn! :x

Have you guys seen LIN JUN JIE picture's recently?
Take a look!

LIN JUN JIE,
HOT RIGHT?! =X

Takecare peoples! Loves!

I'm not as lazy as a PIG!

2010-09-07T08:47:00.000+08:00

Damn you guys who said that! And please take note of my changes! (:

I'm tired, sleepy! But i couldn't even sleep!

What's wrong, what's wrong!

(THINKING AND THINKING)

I go do exercise, CRUNCHES!

(Clear that extra Beer Belly!!)

Aftermath,

I GONNA PRAY! (;

P.S : I pray, When it's time for me to say goodbye. I'll never forget looking in your eyes,
I pray, That I feel your touch And that God doesn't forget our love.
I pray, When I close my eyes, I can still see visions of you on my mind.
I pray, That I see you in another life.
I pray that you still by my side.

Am i confused? Or ... ://

2010-09-04T09:32:00.001+08:00

By th moon and th sun.

All th sadness i have convicted on you.

I try many times t hold on t you but i failed it...

Just got back from Yishun, girlfriend alight first.

We went t Linken birthday at east coast pit. Okay, i'm in th wrong!

I thought it was at Pasir ris ;x Hahas.

After that girlfriend came and i eat awhile, after that went straight t collect money.

After that went t cine, t watch-ed Haunted Changi.

Hmm, effects and everything. I give 4/5.

I don't know it's a true story or. So guys check it out yourself alright ;//

- - - - - -

Sitting here all alone, with my tears. All alone with my fears.

I'm wondering if i have t do without you. But there's no reason why.

I felt asleep late last night, crying like a newborn child.

I'm trying t hold myself close! Pretending my arms are yours.

After a min, i think.....

Truth is that i realize, love is fading from your eyes. Don't know how it came t this!

But i gonna get it fixed asap, cause nothing is worth losing you.

What can i do t help you see, that there's no need for jealousy and insecurities.

I'll do anything for you, anything you want me too.

I'd go anywhere for you, Anywhere you asked me to...
I'd do anything for you, Anything you want me to...

Your love as far as i can see. Is all i'm ever gonna need.
There's one thing for sure i know it's true.

I used t think that dreams were just for sentimental fools!!
And i never find someone who give their love so true.

But i knew th very minute, i couldn't live my life without you in it.

And now i want th whole world t know!

I know he's has fame, name, car?. When you're with him, you're feeling like a star.
But when i'm home alone, i think only of you. So what do you know, how does it go...

So how can he buy a love that's not for sale...

If you two were so in love i couldn't tell..
Girl, but when i'm home alone i hear your heart, it spells...
You gotta know and how does it go..

- - - - - -

Friends -> Lover's!

Lover's -> Enemy!

Enemy -> Friends!

I'm missing you, how we used t bound this relationship so strong.
Tell me where did we go wrong.
They say i'll learn t forget but it sure ain't happened yet.

Been checking all th places where we used t go. Been lookin' for your face inside th crowd.
I've been talking t the people that we used t know. But nobody wants t say.
Where you hang out and when i text your phone.
Seems like your never, ever home. And you don't return my text.

I still have your pictures in my phone. They're th only thing that's left of you and me.

What can i do t make you come back soon and make it just th way it used t be?
Is there someone new could never go on without you.

Memories.......

Th shits i left behind. I still think about it all th time.
Nothing stays th same, maybe i'm t blame. I'd do it all again.

Thru these eyes, i've seen a thousands lies.

And it's taken years t realize. That nothing stays th same and no one is t blame!

What makes this world go round, will the answer let him down?

He is so sweet and young and his life has just begun...
What does his future hold that's th story left unknown.
Will he make it through his days, let our relationships lead th way.

Part of me laughs, part of me cries, part of me wants t question why?...
Why is there joy and why is there pain?....

Sitting there all alone, in th window of my room.
Watching th world go by, brings tears t my eyes.
All i see is hurt and pain, i want t break th chain.

But i keep pressing everyday and i'll find my own sweet way. ;//

You can be all that and still can be who you are.
You gotta know for sure that it isn't make believe..
You may feel weak but you are strong! Don't you give up!
If you keep holding on, you'll never be wrong.
Just close your eyes cause it lies deep in your heart.

- - - - - -

Everybody's laughin in my mind. Rumors spreading about this other guy.
Do you do what you did when you did with me.
Does he love you th way i can?
Did you forget all th plans that you made with me?
Cause girl i didn't!

That should be me, holding your hand!
That should be me, making you laugh!
That should be me, this is so sad!
That should be me!

That should be me, feeling your kiss!
That should be me, buying you gifts!
This is so wrong, i cant go on!
Till you believe that that should be me.... ;//

I need t know should i fight for love! Or disarm!
Its getting harder to shield. This pain in my heart...

At times, my friends say that you're not really worth it!

2010-09-01T18:17:00.000+08:00

Once a brother, always a brother.

At time i realise, my friends say that you're not really worth it.

You even went to your WOLF-LIKE friends for advice but...

I'd rather keep it simple, maybe i'm too good for you??

I believed you were my love but??...

But to be frank to people who viewing this blog of mine.

Because of you, i remember crying till dawn.

I regret everytime i think about you when my heart was too soft and easy.

I'm too good to been throw away and too boring to have...

You should've treated me better when we were together!

But why are you clinging to me now??

You fooled me with your lies, hundreds of times!

But today onwards, I'll be a bad guy!

Who makes friends cry!

Now without a single tear, I'll laugh at you!

LOSER! WHO'S INSIDE A GAME CALLED LOVE!!

GET ON YOUR KNEES AND TAKE ME BACK!

IF NOT, GET OUT OF MY SIGHT RIGHT NOW!

How i wish...!

2010-08-28T19:40:00.000+08:00

How i wish to be alone, but not lonely. Just me, myself and i.

But to enjoy your free time being you and yourself.

Maybe i'm getting bored of this, should i or should'nt i?

I feel so stuffy and it's like i'm doing th same and again and again.

It's time to feel th air outside! Make it fresh.

But how? I'm not sad or angry.

Just that i'm getting bored of this!

I just want to be alone, thats all.

Enjoying your free time being myself and i! That's all.

How i gonna make it right? Today my father birthday and it's like i neglecting him.

Mom birthday i didn't bought for her a small cake.

Don't even know why, this year is a fcukked up year! I neglect people alot!

And i never care and concern people well.

All i wanna do is Work, Earn More Cash!

And people won't look down on me.

But i'm in control. I have to let go of it! Like now!

End here, hope to go Powerhouse later. I'm die-ing to dance and free th stress inside my mind!

Hope so! Die-ing so! Let it off! Please.

Tyvm for your view. :D

Will post again, tmr or next day.

:D Can't wait to hate you, but i don't wanna! :(

2010-08-28T05:07:00.000+08:00

Happy 5 years of friend t Silly&Pretty and now we become LOVERS!

My girlfriend! : D

Even though i "EH TAHAN" your nonsense! ;x

Hahas!

Okay, my girlfriend only give me time t blog! Kana control le. :(

Once she finish bathe then i OUT OF HERE! ;D

Anyway goodnight peoples!

Tyvm, for th viewing!

Once upon a time
We swore not to say goodbye
Something got a hold of us
And we changed
And you sat alone in pride
And I sat at home and cried.

I can't wait to hate you!
Make you pain like I do
Still can't shake you off
I can't wait to break through these emotional changes
Seems like such a lost cause
I can't wait to face you
Break you down so low there's no place left to go
I can't wait to hate you!

Learning something that, you have change'd!

2010-08-27T14:02:00.000+08:00

I'm not Rihanna, that i love the way you lie!

I'm not Britney Spears, t have 3 girlfriend!

I'm not Taio Cruz, t break, break your heart!

It's raining, perhaps you cry till late night. (:

I don't wish to know either!

Here's a tip for today :

Want to know how to get rid of Beer Belly (:

Here are some ways of beer belly reduction:

o Positive attitude: It is very important for beer belly reduction. One way is to promise your self every morning that you would stay away from wrong foods as you want to stay healthy.

o Proper diet: You need to take complex carbohydrates, proteins and vegetables & fresh fruits. Avoid sugar, white foods, caffeinated drinks and alcohol. Alcohol is the main reason for your beer belly so once you avoid it half of the battle is won. Drink a glass of lukewarm water mixed with lemon everyday. It boosts your metabolism and cleanses the liver as well. You must drink at least 8 glasses of water daily. Prepare a three months program. But that does not mean that you can eat anything after these three months. You have to stick to a balanced diet in future as well. Acai berry is also an excellent fat burner that helps to reduce the waistline and lose around 20 pounds in just a few weeks.

o Exercises: Regular exercises for at least 30 minutes daily are essential for beer belly reduction. You do not need go to a gym; you can work out some easy exercises at home only. Include some cardio vascular exercises in your daily routine. Try some ab exercises like sit ups and crunches. You must perform 20 to 30 sit ups everyday. You may also work out with the ab circle pro. This fitness device would guide you through the right techniques. The best time to work out is early in the morning and just before the night sleep.

o Set Realistic Goals: You must measure your waistline every month. Set a realistic target that you would be able to achieve in these three months.

Hope everything goes well! :D

Tyvm, takecare people!

Dieing Dieing to watch STEP UP 3D ! ):

2010-08-26T23:38:00.001+08:00

I'm "Die-ing" t watch-ed th movie Step Up 3D! ):

Okay, i done eating KFC.

And my girlfriend is eating Salad while Resting in th bed!

Walao, like that will grow FAT! LO!

Girlfriend here :

THIS FAT BOY HERE GT ALOT OF COMPLAINS!

Someday people will know what type of friend are you! Damn!

2010-08-25T15:05:00.000+08:00

When your famous, you treated like a superstar!
When your famous, you pulling up in your fancy car!
When your famous, everybody know just who you are!
When your famous, they reserve you a spot right next to the bar!
When your famous, free champagne and you raise it up high!
When your famous, all your girlfriends cute and you looking fly!
When your famous, damn your partying all night!
When your famous, and you never get tired

I'm tired of all this, can you just give me back what you promised? I am sick of taking care of you, hoping you to forgive me but its like never keep working. So you want me do like how?

Always messages you, but you didnt have th guts t reply back! Throw your freaking handphone then! First you didn't even attend my girlfriend, best friend birthday chalet. She supports you, take care of you. But you didn't give her a DAMN face! 2ndly, i'm your brother. My birthday you didn't attend too! Fcuxking hell, people will know what you will deserve!

Your just worth $20bucks face! And i mean it!

But nevertheless, i know i'm small hearted! But, sigh. I just don't know okay!

Knowing that alot of people is be known of something, i guess i should kept it confidential?

Hahas! Just wait and watched, what gonna happens! ;))

For 1 week straight, me and my girlfriend was at Hotel 81. So ya, now at home. Just came back too. Hahas! Well, gonna work hard soon!

Oct, Sentosa? Picnic at marina barrack! Haha! :DDD

Special moments of my life

2010-08-22T03:55:00.000+08:00

Sometimes you wonder if this fight is worthwhile.

Th precious moments are all lost in th tide.

They're swept away and nothing is what is seems.

The feeling of belonging t your dreams!

The minute you walked through my door, I knew this love is forever more. But then you told me all these lies. See th tears filling up my eyes. You taught me right from wrong and told me always t be strong. But now i'm better off alone, searching for a better home.

Hello, i'm here again t blog. Feel so bored afterall, while my girlfriend is hair-drying a wet hair.

So i gonna bathe after i finish blog. Today when to Kallang Leisure Park t watch PCK Movie!

Rating was : 7 out of 10. Very nice, very funny! But abit boring those parts. LOL!

Lame-r show i ever watch! And somemore going t have part 2.

But after this PCK Movie, i really really want t watch STEP UP 3D. But my girlfriend don't like.

Bamn! How?! How?! Sad!

Kk lahs, i going bathe. My girlfriend KPKB liao! GO POM POM!

Hahas! Goodnight peoples!

Love's.

And sorry t th people that i never PH. =(

5 Secrets For Bigger, Stronger Muscles

2010-08-20T07:24:00.000+08:00

(Large Muscle Body)

Sorry, i don't need protein to make my body big!

My body already like so big! Hahas.

Well here are some advice for you guys with small body's.

Feel free to read (:

By modifying your diet and exercise programme, you can add kilos of lean muscle to your lean frame in no time. These 5 quick tips should help you fuel your workouts for maximum performance and gains.

1 Go A Long Whey
Mix one scoop of whey-protein into a glass of milk before each workout. Men who take an amino-acid supplement (whey protein is rich in amino acids) before they lift build more muscle than those who fuel up after they exercise.

2 Surrender To The Munchies
Eat snacks all day, but focus on foods that are high in protein and low in saturated fat, like lean meats, nuts, egg whites and low-fat dairy products.

3 Fish For Compliments
Consuming fish that are rich in omega-3 fatty acids — mackerel, sardines, salmon and tuna — will indirectly help you to gain big muscles fast, because it helps muscles become more sensitive to insulin — improving glycogen storage and also the absorption of amino acid into the muscles, while preserving glutamine — a key amino acid responsible for protein metabolism and preventing muscle deterioration.

4 Turn To The White Powder
Creatine is one of the few (legal) muscle supplements that live up to the hype. In one study, users increased their muscle strength by between eight and 14 per cent. Best dose for men: 10g twice a day for two days, followed by a maintenance dosage of 2g daily. But, avoid caffeine — Belgian researchers found that even small amounts of caffeine almost completely blocked the benefits of creatine.

5 Hail This Muscle Helper
Research on HMB or Beta-Hydroxy Beta-methylbutyrate shows that it allows the body to stay in an anabolic (muscle-building) state longer. After four weeks, study subjects given supplemental HMB showed a greater increase in muscle, lost more body fat and were stronger than the group given a placebo.

The matter of fact, "I still miss you!"

2010-08-17T01:38:00.000+08:00

"There’s always at least one person, the one "great friend" that comes along having you convinced that nothing bad will ever happen to or get in the way of your friendship. Then comes the day when you two start drifting apart to the point where it seems like neither of you know each other anymore."

Will i ever regret? To th person i care so much, but end up, it seems like neither of us know each other anymore.

No! No! I don't want that feeling, that feeling is so eff up!

It's only comes th day when YOU! Start drifting apart from me.

Forgive and forget?! Will you!!

There's nothing we should quarrel!

Every little things i did for you, is for you bloody own good!

Nothing can't compare with other people.

Course at most, i help you and you help me back!

But something fall out of your mind and thinking that i'm a burden for you?!

What is this!

*Just skipped that "i fell in love with you".

"I's tearing up my heart when i'm with you.

But when we are apart, i feel it too.

And no matter what i do, i feel the pain

with or without you."

It's isn't love, so what it is ?

2010-08-09T04:06:00.000+08:00

You be my commander, i be your everything you said.

I can never be th one you love ever! But i can make sure you learn th love that i can give it to you.

What is love seriously? I never make it perfect or i making out of a fool of myself to love?

I can give everything you want that i can give, but attitude, PMS?

I seriously can't take it, feeling that the love is fade or?

Always wanted to try to fight back what i wanna win, but now i just lazy to be a winner.

I'm trying my best to let in to you many times.

I feel so frustrated at times we quarrel.

Izzit because i'm so pity of your love, or i aiming to your $$$$?

NO! I love you as much how i love myself.

But one thing for sure, money can do whatever shit you wanna do.

But one thing for sure, money can not buy love.

I know your not buying my love just showing money to me.

But i can't accept it when you treat me last few months. It's sick!

I kept on thinking many times, just to leave you or not to leave you.

The love is in there, i can't fade it so easier. I know i love you! I love you!

But don't treat me as if, i owned my life to you. I got my freedom too.

But not to treat me like shit! I just dislike this.

Always fighting, take back old memories and bring it to quarrels.

I just want you to learned the mistakes we done and continue to our life happily.

How exactly i know, where i wanna go. By your Sarcastic looks, words.

I just don't know whether i wanna said it out or not.

Just for example, when everything you ask me "Where do you want to go?"

Whenever i said "Anything, or i don't know" Should'nt you be the one who answer that suggestion?

It's from the brain we think. I mean we are talking about common sense.

Just don't ask infront of me, to your friends that "See my Boyfriend wants to go where then go?"

This is not the correct way you can speak up to your friends.

What they will talk back to me, i'm the prince? i'm the king?

You can ask it personally to me, not to show off that your Boyfriend is the king, so need to ask him.

I just don't like, if everyday this thing happen. People hate me day by day.

I got a face, name and everything. Not lowing down my face and name just like that.

I hope you understand it girl, i love you and i mean it. I put you as my first priority.

Hoping that everyday my girlfriend has a sweet talk, sweet face and do everything in sweet things.

Sorry for the shouting, i didn't mean it. I mean when a person is damn angry, everything is popping out of it.

2010-08-03T19:51:00.000+08:00

I love you (:

Hey hey! It been years i hack into my Boyfriend blog. ;D

Guess what?Im doing this to prevent spiders and rats to take over this blog.

My boyfriend is simply too lazy to update.

Oh yah, I helping him update without any rewards one okay !

Anyway 11 more days !

Beebee you know I know ar!

Hahah ! <3

Okay.just a short post.

Luv die you! <3 (:

I'm back!

2010-07-24T10:54:00.000+08:00

Well, was doing on my blogskins. As it was like?! Duhs!!!!
So i give it a new skins, is it nice guys? Comment it thanks!

Just came back from East Coast, bad memories! bad memories! I know that person from there.
And blahs blahs blahs, i not gonna continue. Well, i promised myself t get t gym like 1 week 2 times or more.
Cause i wanna have figure just like, _____ nvm. Ignore that part. And as well as working hard, get th best payoff work?! =)) And i can lead my most happy life. It doesn't matter if nowadays people changed alot.
I don't give a damn or bamn anymore. As at most i got money and i only got money but nothing else.
But of course my Girlfriend. (;

Knowing that Revenge is sweet, maybe i not gonna hurt myself for th moment?! Yeah...
My birthday celebration was boom! 1 martell, atleast i seh! But i don't remember a single thing what i done!
I know i end up went t SGHospital, because my girlfriend was having Asthma. That's all.
Nevermind my birthday was ruined and someone promised me t treat me dinner. But end up i can understand th situation. Hope he don't forget what he promised! (;

I gonna stop here, hope i can sleep for 1 hour at most t wake up by 1pm. As i meeting my Girlfriend later.
Alright, stopping here. Night's people. ;)

"Maybe th feeling is freaking hurt till i wanna forget about you, but i know in th future.. You really need me in your life. I said "Sorry"! I respect you! I do whatever you ask! What more you want?!"

Happy birthday, my beloved girlfriend ;D

2010-07-04T22:59:00.000+08:00

Did i told you guys i went t PH yesterday with Ah bie, Linken, Jeffery, Esmonde. And th rest i forget their name. Omg! I felt sad, cause i know this day gonna happens. Cause i know i miss my bros and sis so much till i don't have time for them. They scolded me and tell me that i changed alot when i have a girlfriend. Damn!
Yesterday was a BOOM! We danced till our leg pain! Damn! Esmonde was drunk! And he dance till a Crazy guy! Hahahas. Jeffery was sad cause the girl hes dating with went with other guys. :x
And Ah bie was in deep heartbroken, okays sayang now i understand what is call love. Towards you and ur ex, i hope you can forget him forever till th end. As i know if one day you and your ex saw each other again you will heartbroken till you wanna blood cry.

Okay, i gonna confess something t peoples that i saw at PH ytd. Tell my girlfriend anything you guys want cause you just gonna get ugly! Cause i don't damn care that you told her i dance with girls or girls touching me. As she trusted me alot for your info. Hahas! What a losers... Ya so what my girlfriend let me go club, but well i don't firlt with girls or what? Talk also can't huhs?! What's with you people keep asking me, "Your girlfriend never scold you?" Or did your girlfriend know you went club? I mean what th fuck is this. You guys wanna play childish, i can play it too. So if you guys don't wanna play ugly, stop complaining t her what i do and i don't do. WTF! Can let it be nature? ;D thanks.

Well you see, my girlfriend birthday is on 5th and it's like 2 more hours t her 19th birthday. Yes i know last year it didn't happen quite well. I MIA from her, cause i felt heartbroken and everything was in a mess. I keep on feel those miserable stuff towards her and my brothers. Okays i not gonna repeat and tell th whole story again. Alright, sooner is her birthday. Just wanna tell her from my heart that i know words can't tell th truth but doing actions do. I know for th past 6 months, you help me alot of things. Yes i would like t thanks t her! ;D And about my attitude and stuff, all can be reverse change. About your dressing and those slimming thingy, please do try and don't be lazy at all times. Change everything t a new and better girl. About your languages all th best. Don't scold hokkien words already hahas. And always know that your boyfriend here will always love you till th end. I know everyday we need t quarrel about small stuff but we two are Horoscoping "Cancer's" we always wanted t win. I always give in everytime and my heart feels sad and heartbroken. Whenever i wanna give in it's like i wanna win too. Okays, i'm sorry for th past 6 months that i never give in and my attitude sucks i know. Well don't wanna your birthday t be ruined. All th best my girlfriend, 19 years old is going t be a lady. Don't always get jealous and your looks always can tell your character, on how you look like. Always listen thru my friends that you look at my friends on one kind. You know you have t changed in everything t look good. You can't always expect your parents t be there for you. You are a big girl. :D I love you always. May your wishes come thru! All th best!

Joey, Toh Ling Yan

050791

19 years old.

Happy Birthday, my girlfriend :D

All th best and may your wish come thru! ;))

Those were th days we have much time together, but now...

2010-06-21T20:46:00.000+08:00

Now at chalet, feeling so down. I didn't meant to said that my birthday Celebration is today. It's actually tmrw.

And i'm damn stress with all those people who turned out today cause i didn't have th chance to buy food and drinks all. Just come back from Escape Theme Park, wet and very wet. Wish had th fun with Mona just now.

Everyday about life i keep on thinking why why why, what's wrong with that person! I dislike him! Very frustrated about him. I kept thinking so hard and i gonna promise myself just to let go that feeling. Th feeling that i kept so long, that i will cherish that person till th end. And i break my promise. Cause i never feel anything between us, all that promises. You don't f-cuking care at all. Then it's okays. Maybe i shall find someone better.

Now Dan, Mona, My Brother and Shah helping to solve th problem about foods and drinks all. Thanks god!

I got really nothing to said serious shit! I can't even help myself with this type of things, feeling like just wanna runaway from this chalet and be irresponsible with this problem. But i can't, i have still have to face everything myself. Can't imagine that you can actually never really care about me just like last time. Hope that you find someone better like what i gonna do. Maybe its time for us to really break up our relationship. Cause from now onwards i will never fcuking care about you anymore. I'M PROMISED!

Because i find it stupid to care and concern about people who never cherish me that much?! For what fuck!

Right?! Maybe i got alot of other brother's out there who is actually more better than you. Takecare. ;/

I felt hurt, i felt insecure, i felt someone just stepped my head! Felt someone gonna leave me forever.

I still have not sleep from just now, as we quarrel together again. Well, th same old thingy. I guess i gonna let go everything that my heart has been hurt and i gonna let it go at once! Once it kept black, forever be black!

=( i sick and tired seriously!

Can anyone out there willing to talk to me. I really feeling damn sad! Damn sad! ;(

UPDATEDS

2010-06-20T18:50:00.000+08:00

Updating on my 3days2night chalet.
COSTA SANDS RESORT (DOWNTOWN EAST)

DUE : 21/06/2010 & 22/06/2010
22/06 will be BBQ & CAKE cut day! :D
Do come earlier.

And is a must to bring presents. ;x

Just shut up and get lost!

2010-06-19T04:34:00.000+08:00

As i grow older, i have learned something. But that something is such a miserable things. :(

I'm Irratating! I'm Annoying! I'm what else? JUST SAID!

I forever will lost a brother's each year, cause i annoy them! What the fuck is this?!
I'm trying t said everything i can! Saying sorry isn't enough i know.
But can you like give me face?! I'm just asking, you was saying : I was IRRATATED?!
Then you don't wanna come! WTF IS THIS!
I'm been hurt many times and you always made me cry! I don't give a fuck whether ppl said why i'm crying!
Cause It's doesnt matter, like you always said!

Now what?! Other brother said : You always bastard me, say want come don't want come?!
This is the matter! I don't like! I don't like those feeling! Please...
My birthday coming, can you brother's give me face?!

And for your bloody informations! What if esmonde is coming? Is he pop? What after probations?
Fuck that! It's my birthday, i CHOOSE WHOEVER SUPPOSE TO COME AND SO!
So stop th nonsense!

Update later again :((

A fraction of your love, feels th air.

2010-06-08T00:39:00.000+08:00

Since the day that we met,
I've never had anyone make me feel this way.
And my heart is sure it wants to be with you.
Wanna give you the whole world...

If you make the promise to me, you're gonna stay.
Without you guiding me, I'm lost and so confused.

Updated! I'm still stuck at Downtown East Chalet :D

Just now saw Esther, Andre Adek and Ivan Love when just now was eating dinner with my girl,

at Downtown East food stall.

Gonna update pictures soon!

So still soon. :D

(^^^) Love, i want ur love. (***)

2010-06-06T07:16:00.000+08:00

Hohohohoho! 1 week at Pasir Ris. Now still finding place to stay, but don't know where.
Hope my mom gets the key by today. Cause i now really really very tired!

Today when to watched A Nightmare On Elm Street! with Girlgirl, Brother and Uncle. :DDDD

Based on characters created by Wes Craven in his 1984 sleeper horror hit, Freddy Krueger returns in "A Nightmare On Elm Street", a contemporary re-imagining of the horror classic. A group of suburban teenagers share one common bond: they are all being stalked by Freddy Krueger, a horribly disfigured killer who hunts them in their dreams. As long as they stay awake, the can protect one another... but then they sleep, there is no escape.

Release Date:	3rd June 2010
Language:	English
Running Time:	96 mins

Rating:	M18
Genre:	Thriller.

Tonight will be going to Zirca, cause theres a Mr Hunk tonight. Will be supporting Eddy! :)
Will end here. :)

Love My Girlfriend! :D

Stop it! Please, stop it!

2010-06-05T04:29:00.000+08:00

I remember years ago someone told me,

I should take caution when it comes to friends, trust, care and love!
I did! And you were there to be strong and I was not! My illusion, my mistake.

I was careless, I forgot. I did! And now when all is done, There is nothing to say.
You have gone and so effortlessly. You have won! You can go ahead tell them!

Tell them all I know now, shout it from the roof tops.
Write it on the sky line, all we had is gone now.

Tell them I was happy and my heart is broken. All my scars are open!
Tell them what I hoped would be Impossible.

But falling out of love is hard, falling for betrayal is worst!

Broken trust and broken hearts too.
Thinking all you need is there, building faith on love and words.
And know when all is gone, there is nothing to say.
And if you're done with embarrassing me, Go on your own you can go ahead tell them!

Always people think that i'm always the happiest guy ever! But no, that is wrong.

Inside me was full of emotions breakdown. I do get Jealous! Sad! and what other things.

When i'm angry and don't like the person i will keep it to my heart just to get Revenge!

Keep it for years and will show it when time comes.

And always people thought that i'm those kind of Soft-Hearted, Yes!

But to those people who i love alot!

I can be very Selfish at times! But to those people i love i won't.

I'm sad at times, i just don't know what happen to my life. Feeling so fuck-ed up!

Really lose control, damn fuck-ed up feelings!

Since the day the person has left, my life is like really over! I can't do it alone.

And i know my girlfriend is there for me to help-ed me at all those things.

But i feel like i'm somehow a fuck-ed up Boyfriend, but i do Love my girlfriend alot.

When i'm mad or feel damn sad, i tend to Eat more, Walk fast!

Tend to give people faces, because sometimes i really can't take it anymore!

I feel there's something i got to do with my life. And i'm always have High Blood Pleassure!

Always fast angry! Damn fast. I'm seriously need to change.

And some of my friends and brother's.

Do keep in mind of this, i Respect you, i Care about you, i Help-ed you!

Please appreciate it! I don't want to become like your subsitute.

When you need me there, i be there. So whenever you guys go out? No need call me.

When you need help, then you call me? Wtf is this?!

Please! I don't really want this fucking reasons.

Saying that i never invite you go those places i go? What is this!

Example :

Jack : Woahs, go town never jio me?!

Me : Huhs, sorry lahs. Maybe next time?

Jack : Okays, that time i went drinking with Kenny they all.

Me : And you never invite me too? Wtf!

Jack: Oh, forget about you mahs.

Me : -.- we are brother's, you do things like this?!

Example 2 :

Jack : I got something to tell you abt my girlfriend, i don't know what to do..

Me : Why what happen, just to sort things out.

Jack : Help me Boyster.

Me : I try to help.

See those Example's?

Brother's or Friend's, you trying to use me or?

That's it! I don't wanna be Scapegoat anymore!

Settling a relationship?! Fucktard. I'm just angry okays!

I don't want it feels hurt! I can't take it anymore seriously!

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Sigh, i stop here. I continue again, when i feel like writing. );

take ur dirty pictures for me. LOL =X

2010-06-03T22:15:00.000+08:00

Boyster is always back. But yet he have some conflicts between some peoples who always jealous about him!
Damn, this is my life. This is my style! What you guys want from me?! Stop it! It's getting on my nerves.
I just don't understand why you people wanna jealous about me. When i walk, when i talk?
Why you can't even do that? That's why you jealous. Ya! So what i can talk to girls very long?
You jealous?! Please stop it! Ya i do act dao, cause i don't even remember where we meet up or what.
I'm sorry on behalf on my action's.

Alright, i gonna upload picture's. Lay back time! :DDDD
Let th picture's to the talking!

Take your Dirty Picture for me, take you Dirty Picture! =X

Boyster Smexyy Ass! =X

2010-05-30T06:09:00.000+08:00

If i could be your angel, protect you from th pain. I keep you save from danger.

You never hurt again.

After since i move-d out from Amk, it when well. ;D

Start-ed work around Toa Payoh. Cool shit work ya! Thanks t Jeremy.

But their pay quite low, but it's alright.

Well, Ah Di Basil going work till first of June. Hmm, shall meet up with him everday! LOLS!

Okays, i got t go chiong work for this month till next month until 28.

All i think is $$$$$$ now, btw i moving house soon. Well, update with th place. ;D

Miss J./ My girlfriend. D./ D.Brother.

Bye earth.

Ivan's Chalet! Was Fun!

2010-05-26T08:10:00.000+08:00

Here we are, once again. -.-

I gonna upload Ivan's chalet pic's.

There's alot of them oh my...

Okays, here it goes.

Happy 17th Birthday Ivan Love Love Brother! :DDDDD

Wish you all th best! And always study hard for you exams.

Love, ya brother... Boyster :D

The end.

I TOOK THE NIGHT! ALL EYES ON ME!

2010-05-24T02:58:00.000+08:00

Forgive and forget, why must we do this freak's stuff!
I hate it manxz! Once i forgive th person end up kana step on head again. Ccbxz!
Forget them nevermind, next day contact us again? WTF?!

Sigh, nevermind.
I mov-ed back t Bedok! Yeah.. But freaking hell i got to work hard la now.
Currently working near TPY there. As i don't wanna enclosed where i was working.
And stop finding me or stalking me. I work means i work! :DDD

I didn't know you like to said BREAK BREAK BREAK!
It's like everyday you are saying that to me, but why didn't you wanna break?!
I done everything i could, i know i'm not a good boyfriend. So what you waiting for?!
I have enough of this nonsense. You can go and talk to my brothers, but i will keep it to my heart.
I'm damn angry of this shit all. PERSONAL RELATIONSHITS! You share to people?!
SOMEMORE TO MY GOD-BROTHERS. WTF?! I didn't even share it to your sisters nor your friends!
But why you must do that! You want to shit on my name or whatever! JUST DO IT!
I'M DAMN FREAKING ANGRY LAHS! FUCK! PLEASE STOP IT!
Having migrain now. Shit!

Okays, i going sleep soon. As yesterday i'm late for my work! And i didn't went.
And my work place says no need to work for that day! HAHAHAHAHAS.
SHIOK LAH, SLEEP TILL AFTERNOON! :DDD
Cause i was freaking drunk plus sleepy. Hahahahas, slept like a pig. LALALALAS!

Okays, gtg! Update tmrw. :DDD
Have my laptop plus internet! NICE!

Like a pyramid girl, th love of pyramid! ;D

2010-05-19T09:53:00.001+08:00

*Notice th picture, it's taken at Night Safari on th 13th of May. :)

Well, girl parents ask t move back t her own house for safety reason. But, i just gonna continue working.

But no matter what we will get th chance to see each other again and everyday.

I'm not sad nor disappointed. Just that at times i know i'm lonely and emo.

So no many what i just gonna be sleeping alone for this 1 month or less than a month without my girl.

- Even if you were a million miles away, I could still feel you in my bed. Near me, touch me, feel me.

And even in th bottom of the sea. I can still hear inside my head, Telling me, touch me, feel me.

So tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you.

Tonight I'm gonna find a way to make it without you, I'm gonna hold onto the times that we had.

Have you ever tried sleeping with a broken heart, Well you can try sleeping in my bed.

Lonely, only, nobody ever shut it down like you...

You wore the crown, you make my body feel heaven-bound.

Why don't you hold me, need me, I thought you told me you'd never leave me.

Okays, i gonna skipped this part. :DDD

I find something interest on earphone's, but it's my favourite. Lady GaGa Earphone's.
Check this out.

Nice right? I gonna get th black one's. Cause black is my favourite color. :D

If you guys wanna have it, shoutout at my cbox. To ask more about them.

Cause i got th full details.

2 more days my girlfriend gonna return t her own home. :(

And 2 more days t start of my work at Novena. Hahas!

I gonna be at th booth for some Ninja Warriors from Singapore?

Th work is gonna be like Standing at th Booth for registrations. :DDD

Cool right.

And now is 9.48am, and i have not sleep. Damn! Idk if i have insomnia or what.

Sigh, time t get some sleeping pills LOL =X

Okays, gonna go Facebook.. To check whoever is emo'ing. Lalalas.

Takecare people's, and do remember to click on my nuffnang ads.

They are precious lahs. :DDDD Byes.

I should'nt even feel th fear of you.

2010-05-16T09:45:00.001+08:00

~~As i know 100% from head t toe of you. : )~~

I shall blog what i suppose t blog, as i'm too lazy t blog these days.
Well, shall wish Sandra.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY SANDRA. 18 already. Must always know you can club! (: LOL =X

13th May 2010.
Thursday.

Was planning t go night safari :D Accompany girlgirl t work. Night around 7pm went there.
Well, i couldn't get t take alot of picture's as "No Flash Light Allow"! Damn!
It will blind those animals. Wth's.

*Shall uploads photo later.

14th May 2010.
Friday.

Happy Anniversary Girlgirl. :DDD
It's our 13th month. I love you girl, at times i always shouted t you. I try-ing t control myself no matter what.
I'm sorry once again for shouting t you. :D

15th May 2010
Saturday.

Which is yesterday. Party!!! At St James Powerhouse. At last i can enter that stupid club.
But on wednesday theres no way i could enter, ladies night shall change location. :x

Saw familiar faces like, Sandra, Cherlyene, Xue Ling, Sufen, Kitty, Ah Bie, Jun Jie,
Snowboi(Miss him!) and many more. Eventually can't count, hahas!
Esmonde, Silvien and two of Esmonde friend come with us. Omg! SERIOUSLY!
That girl is so LOK! Dance like -.- nevermind. (x

Okays, thanks to Esmonde, Kitty, Sandra and Xue Ling t get sehxz!
Hitt-ed home at around 5am plus. Freaking tired, but then reach-ed home didn't bother t sleep.
As idk why.

My thoughts is that you won't ever text-ed me again. As you reply, my heart feels so happy afterall.
Thanks and i know you are there whenever i need you! And you are th only person who i could talk too. (:

Okays, i gonna end here. Btw, please please help me click on my nuffnang. : )

2010-05-13T05:44:00.000+08:00

I done too much for people, all i ever is nothing.

Searching for truth in this twisted environment. I can't believe that I once was inspired by you. But I'll be ok. I don't wanna fall to pieces. I don't wanna fall at all so... Go. Away. Just go. I don't wanna fall anymore. But thanks, you come into my dream. (: I'm happier. <333

Didn't thought of this, but i know you guys gonna freak out! Actually thought of getting married earlier.

I just don't know why i thinking like this. Maybe saw those sister and brother, have baby's and they married.

But i don't want to ruined my parents life. Already promised them that after i married then i can have baby's. (:

Yes i know, i love t enjoy life. But there's too much thing, i gonna do!

But after something left from my life. I feel so sad. Knowing that person so well, end up it happens till a burden.

Wtf! Person who change-d my life so much.

But thanks, you came into my dream. But i can said it's a bad nightmare. But i love it! (:

Quarrel today, as usually :D But end up it settle up. Wanted t go PH, afraid that bounce out again.

As malay can't enter that freaking club anyway. Well, head down to Kovan. To eat dinner, as i was freaking hungry.

Delicious Chicken Chop Baked Rice (: Cycena and her boyfriend appear, and we went straight to Cine.

Wanted to watch-ed movie, in th end slack there till 2am. After that went to eat supper at Jalan Besar.

My stomach is growing fatter! I need to do something serious shit. Night world. (: Night peoples.

^^Love my Bao Bao Fei. (:

Happy Mother's Day, and to my little Princess, sister :D Love you!

2010-05-09T13:24:00.000+08:00

To My Little Sister,

As i can't get you a cake, then i will let you see this cake. (:

As your brother is having Financial Problems.

Putri Nurzhafira, 8 year olds.

You getting older and older day by day.

But one thing sad is When your 20, i will be like 40plus?

Hahahahas.

Okay, nevermind... I bought for you hamster. (;

Please study well and always listen to our parents.

I know my mom gonna read this.

So ya, my fault i told you i gonna buy for you cake.

So mom, sorry for the financial problems.

I'm quite sad lah. Nevermind.

I will try to follow everything what my girlfriend saids.

I just don't wanna quarrel.

It just takes a little bit of this, a little bit of that

It started with a kiss now we're up to bat

A little bit of laughs, a little bit of pain

I'm tellin' you my babe, its all in the game of love.

You roll me, control me, console me

Please hold me!

You guide me, divide me into whole, yeah!

2010-05-07T04:32:00.000+08:00

Date : May 7 Friday

Time : 4.23am

Title : Regretted! You left. What the hell wrong with you.

Life is always been hard for me. See the picture above, when i was small i use to think like that. ):

Now regretted!

I always take someone for granted. End up i lost everything.

If there any chances, i would like turn back time.

Deep shit! My hand is now hurt, as just now in th morning i cook nuggets. While th oil was boiling VOLCANO! :S Clumsy me, damn hurt. I'm done playing my facebook game! Clear my Cafe World, Club Game. (x Okays, i gonna have a rest soon. As i gonna clear my eye-bag! Is damn big.

Morning, maybe going for exercise. I really wanna lose weight. (:

Miss my bro's and all. Takecare.

When you know the truth, its hurt!

2010-05-06T06:35:00.000+08:00

Hold on, i said Hold on bring it on baby!

From today onwards i gonna Exercise! And loose my f-cuking weights.

Targeting to wear size 32, as my waist size is 36.

I'm gonna get my Pride back. And i don't wanna let people step my Pride again!

No matter what you can trust only yourself.

When they step on you, i take my time, i put it back till i'm on Track!

What comes around, will always goes around.

Those people who disown me, time by time they will get what they deserve.

I know it sound evil, but yes! I have to be selfish at times.

You don't care me, i don't care you. Mofo's!

I gonna update this short, as i gonna get prepare to get Exercise.

Push up, whatever up's! I try my best to lose weight! (:

Bye guys, see ya!

I can see it on your eyes :DDD

2010-04-30T19:40:00.000+08:00

30th Friday April 2010

Wo Ai Shang Ni <33

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I don't know if i should take my Satio to trade in to Iphone's. It's like everyone's is using Iphone's.

And their App makes me woahs! LOL =X

But the camera damn sucks and the message tones! Arghs..

So i just don't know. Maybe should let me think about it?!

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Okays, btw

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MING'S.

Bro, all the best to your life (:

Don't hong girls can le. Hahahahas :DDDDD

You don't even care...

2010-04-27T09:04:00.002+08:00

27 April 2010

Revenge is sweeter, than you ever were.

Are you even listening when I talk you?

Do you even care what I'm going through?

Your eyes stare and they're staring right through?

You're right there but it's like you never knew me.

I realized that I've done too much for someone,

that the only next possible step to do is to stop.

Leave them alone.

Walk away.

It’s not like I'm giving up, and it’s not like I shouldn’t try.

It’s just I've to draw the line of determination from desperation.

What is truly mine will eventually be mine, and what is not,

no matter how hard I try, will never be.

But then i realised ):

When I don't need you

but its always gonna come right back to me.

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Just came back from Cine-leisure, have our K-box session.

With my girl, mabel, cycena and ben. (:

Mabel chalet just pass and i'm really angry of myself.

You can't come atleast call or sms me.

I was worried for you!

Thanks to Ivan and the rest of the brother's.

Cause my girlfriend was working then they are the one who accompany me. ):

Sigh..

Do you even know how much it hurt,

that you gave up on me to be.

Revenge is sweeter than you ever were.

I'm so mad at you right now,

i can't even find the words.

And you're on the way down.

I can't wait to see you burn.

You try to make me hate myself,

when I should be hating you.

What's the hell's wrong with you?!

I'm having the day from hell.

It wasn't all going so well, before you came.

And you told me you needed space.

Don't know who my real friends are? Anymore....

I put my faith in you.

What a stupid thing to do!

And not to mention...

I'm feeling hung over and out of touch!

I need intervention.

Attention to stop temptation to scream!!!

Everything is mest up straight from the heart.

There's alot of pictures to upload, stay tuned guys. ):

As you are saying? Pui my father more handsome!

2010-04-22T22:26:00.000+08:00

Thursday 22 Apr 2010.

Statues : Oh shit! I'm bloody tired man!

Yesterday when K-box-ing. LOL! So didn't rest that much, nevermind.

Hit-ted to TTSH to go for my eye appointment. And my girlgirl is feeling abit sick, so accompany her first.

As my appointment is abit later than that.

8.15am, f-cuking register and waited for 15minutes. Bloody hell, already check for my eye thingy.

Waited for the doctor to see me around 9.30am.

So what if we come first? First come first serve-d! Bull-shits!

Wait-ed till my eye pain! The doctor didn't even take good record of my eye.

Even though i have two appointment on my same eyes.

Then, thank god the other doctor came and rescue for the documents about my eyes.

Ulcers is at my eyes, and it 20% will get blind.

So i gonna take good care and every 2 hours gonna put on my right eyes.

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Let's get back to my topic.

As i was saying, friends? Is there any really truthful friend out there who won't do some shit's problem?

Ivan, my love. There's so many friends out there who are willing to be ur BFF.

So don't take any further anger to your friends, they are like that.

So we must be selfish within all there.

Like me? I'm Boyster, i can have alot of brother's out there.

Countless friends, countless sister, countless brothers.

And i know i have 2 brothers that is truthful to me.

But i think twice, why should i be cherishful and helpful to that son of a bitch?!

He steal my friends and what now?

Everytime i need him, where did he go? Busy, busy everyday?

This is BULLSHITS. Friends will always be there for you, where's that line goes?

And for you info, you said you are my brother. Brother will not leave brother lonely.

So just a sms and thats all i will be happier?!

Fuck it! You stole my pride, you stole my friends?!

AND YOU KNOW YOU GONNA GET WHAT?!

REVENGE!

F-CUKING HELL, YOU GONNA SUFFER ALOT!

So what if your still young?

YOU DON'T F-CUKING CARE EITHER?!

Then what for i CARE?!

Bloody hell get your F-CUKING CHILDISH FRIENDS THEN STEALING MY FRIENDS!

:DDDD

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Mabel birthday coming and her chalet will be at Aranda Country Club.

So anyone nearby there, give me a call. (;

Hope to meet you all soon. Byes!

Do you even care?! NO!

2010-04-19T06:29:00.000+08:00

It's in my heart that wanna blog. I just don't understand what's going on.

Girl girl, this is not for you.!

So don't think too much, okay.

Monday, 19 april 2010.

Just realise something that from friend to a brother.

No matter what i still got this feeling that is hurting me or what.

I know i'm a soft-hearted person, but can i just let the feeling go?

What the f-cuked wrong with me, seriously?!

I'm not jealous or what. It's just that why must people steal my friends from me?

Is this the way you treat me 20% and you treat her/him 80%?

I intro you as a friend and you f-cuking put more percentage on her/him.

It's not fair ok!

Thanks to Silvien, Basil, Adeline, Bash, Ahgal, Cherylene, Justin, Jordon.

And last but no least my Adorable Girlfriend. (;

Thanks for all the advice at facebook.

Yes, Silvien i know if its in your situation you confirm angry right?

I should choose my friend properly? I just can't.

I take this brother 100% cause i trust and care him so much.

And what comes around goes around if they deserve it.

I just don't wanna him to get it to deserve it.

As sigh ...

Everything happens for a reason, right?

But am i that stupid to intro that person to my friends? I just don't know!

I feel so like fell out of circle of my friends?

F-cuking i know that person for 4 years and he know that person for few months.

And he is more closer to that person then me?

Wtf right? They two f-cuking treat me what seriously?!

I don't jealous! Is just that why last time that 4 years of my friend treat me good now treat me very bad?!

And him i more closer to him now it change role. F-cuking hell i don't like that feeling.

I just don't f-cuking wanna CONFRONT to him.

I might as well get BREAK UP RELATIONSHIP?! ISNT IT?

And Silvien, i know what you saying just now is that "She lack of friends?"

You sure? She f-cuking took alot of photos with her own friends.

And she lack of friends? 800+ facebook friends and lack of friends?

F-CUK IT SERIOUSLY!

And you know because of that person, he wanna go find that BITCH!

And leave me aside?! F-CUK!

I HATE IT MAN! I HATE IT MAN!

I wish i wouldn't even intro him to anyone, f-cuking alot of my friends change because of him?!

F-cuk my life seriously! F-CUK!