Now at chalet, feeling so down. I didn't meant to said that my birthday Celebration is today. It's actually tmrw.
And i'm damn stress with all those people who turned out today cause i didn't have th chance to buy food and drinks all. Just come back from Escape Theme Park, wet and very wet. Wish had th fun with Mona just now.
Everyday about life i keep on thinking why why why, what's wrong with that person! I dislike him! Very frustrated about him. I kept thinking so hard and i gonna promise myself just to let go that feeling. Th feeling that i kept so long, that i will cherish that person till th end. And i break my promise. Cause i never feel anything between us, all that promises. You don't f-cuking care at all. Then it's okays. Maybe i shall find someone better.
Now Dan, Mona, My Brother and Shah helping to solve th problem about foods and drinks all. Thanks god!
I got really nothing to said serious shit! I can't even help myself with this type of things, feeling like just wanna runaway from this chalet and be irresponsible with this problem. But i can't, i have still have to face everything myself. Can't imagine that you can actually never really care about me just like last time. Hope that you find someone better like what i gonna do. Maybe its time for us to really break up our relationship. Cause from now onwards i will never fcuking care about you anymore. I'M PROMISED!
Because i find it stupid to care and concern about people who never cherish me that much?! For what fuck!
Right?! Maybe i got alot of other brother's out there who is actually more better than you. Takecare. ;/
I felt hurt, i felt insecure, i felt someone just stepped my head! Felt someone gonna leave me forever.
I still have not sleep from just now, as we quarrel together again. Well, th same old thingy. I guess i gonna let go everything that my heart has been hurt and i gonna let it go at once! Once it kept black, forever be black!
=( i sick and tired seriously!
Can anyone out there willing to talk to me. I really feeling damn sad! Damn sad! ;(
