I love you this much, i just dk what you wanna me to do. I changed, i changed to a good one.
I don't wanna leave you anymore. That is a promise! :< Can you just understand my feelings?
I still need friends, brothers. But all gone, all gone. No one ever care about me when i feeling up and downs!
I sacrifice everything, clubs. Now i want is to be my girlfriend side, but not always.
WHERE WERE YOU! WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?! :<
I ALWAYS TRUSTED YOU, I ALWAYS CARE ABOUT YOU!
WHERE'S THE FUCKING RETURN! CAN YOU DON'T MAKE ME ANGRY?!
WHEN I COMEOUT IS JUST THAT YOU DON'T CARE ME AS MUCH AS LAST TIME!
WHAT DID I DO! GOD! PLEASE TELL ME WHAT DID I DO!
SOMETIMES, I ALWAYS TELL MY GIRLFRIEND, I REALLY CAN'T BE BOTHERED!
I REALLY CAN'T! BUT WHEN I NEED YOU, BY MY SIDE! NO ONE! NO ONE!
I TRUSTED YOU TOO MUCH! BUT WHAT DID I GET?!
YOU CHANGED! YOU FUCKING BLOODY CHANGED! NOW I NO ONE TO YOU.
STILL FUCKING FRAMED PHOTOGRAPHS OF YOU & ME TOGETHER! IS ALL I HAVE OF ME AND YOU ANYMORE. WE WERE SO INTO EACH OTHER AND WE THOUGHT IT LAST FOREVER! AND I WON'T FORGET YOU, I DON'T REGRET YOU! BUT THE HARDEST THING I HAVE HAD TO DO IS LIVE WITHOUT YOU! AND I WONDER WHY WE BOTH WALKED AWAY! I HAVE TRIED WITHOUT YOU, CRIED ABOUT YOU! NOW TURN AROUND, COME BACK! SO I DON'T DREAM WITHOUT YOU! AND I PROMISE I WILL MAKE YOU WANT TO STAY.
I'M SORRY FOR ALL I DID, WHAT I SAID. AND THE THINGS I HID. I'M FINALLY OVER ME! THE PAST IS THROUGHT. I CAN'T IMAGINE WHERE I BE! IF YOU HAD NEVER RESCUED ME! YOU GAVE ME HOPE TO LIVE! NOW I NEED YOU! COS I NEED YOU NOW!
As post to you :
: I WROTE IT!
YOU BETTER FUCKING DELETE ALL THE FUCKING POST YOU WROTE FOR ME! I DID NOTHING WRONG OKAYS! DAI YIN MAI?! CAN YOU FUCKING HEAR ME WHEN I'M INSIDE DB ANOT?! NO RIGHT?! WERE YOU THERE INSIDE THAT CELL? WHOS THE FUCK SUFFERING INSIDE FOR THAT FUCKING 5 MONTHS! WHO THE FUCK GOES THAI PUB/DISCO FOR THAT FUCKING 5 MONTHS! YOU LEFT ME, BECAUSE OF KELVIN! YOU LEFT ME! KEEP TELLING ME YOU MUST ACT STRONG, BE STRONG ! AND FINE! FOR WHAT FUCK, YOU WANNA ACT STRONG WHEN YOU CAN'T BE STRONG! JUST BECAUSE HES DOTE YOU MORE THAN I DO WHEN I'M INSIDE?! YOU FIND A GUY JUST TO ENTERTAIN WHEN I'M INSIDE?! WHAT THE FUCK YOU WANT ?! I LOST FRIENDS! I LOST YOU! I LOST EVERYTHING WHEN I'M INSIDE THERE! I TRY TO FIGHT FOR YOU BECAUSE I LOVE YOU BECAUSE OF KELVIN! YOU DID THREATEN ME! YOU FUCK! YOU DID SAY : IF I EVER CONFRONT HIM! YOU BREAK UP WITH ME! YOU BREAK UP WITH ME! FOR ALL THE WORDS YOU WANNA USE, YOU WANNA BREAK WITH ME! AND NOW I'M BACK TO YOUR SIDE! I CHANGED! I FUCKING CHANGED! BECAUSE I LOVE YOU! I LOVE & CARE & DOTE MORE THAN EVERYONE ELSE! I EVEN FUCKING SACRIFICE MYSELF NOT TO GO CLUB ANYMORE! YOU GET PARANOID WHEN YOUR NOT BY MY SIDE! SO WHERE'S THAT FUCKING TRUST, IF YOU STILL PARANOID! I DON'T FUCKING HONG GIRLS OKAY, BUTTERFLYS?! BUTTERFLY FOR WHAT FUCK! PEOPLE GOT EYES TO SEE! YA, I HAVE FACE! I CARE ABOUT MY NAME, FACE AND MY RELATIONSHIP STATUES! I RESPECT IT! THAT'S WHY I NEVER GO HONG GIRLS! WHAT FEAR DO YOU FUCKING HAVE?! I GONNA LEAVE YOU LIKE LAST TIME! NO NO NO! THAT'S NOT FUCKING TRUE OKAYS! WHEN I SAY I GONNA FETCH YOU FROM WORK! YOU SAY DON'T NEED! I TRYING TO BE A GOOD BOYFRIEND, NOT LIKE THE FUCKING PAST NEGLECTING YOU! CAN YOU JUST FUCKING UNDERSTAND MY FEELING ANOT! I DON'T WANT QUARREL WITH YOU, BECAUSE WHEN I KNOW I QUARREL WITH YOU. YOU START TO CONTACT THAT FUCKING CHEAPSKIT COUGH SYRUP GUY, ASKING GIRL MONEY FOR PAYING HIS DEBT! TAKING DRUGS LIKE NO EDUCATIONS STEALING GIRLFRIEND, WHEN THE BOYFRIEND IS INSIDE! YOUR EX! YOUR EX! HE CAUSE THIS FUCKING THING! HE CAUSE EVERYTHING! I SWEAR TO GOD AND I SWEAR TO WHOEVER SAW THIS FUCKING POST SHIT! I MAKE SURE I GONNA KILL HIM WITH A KNIFE, IF HE DARES TO RUINED OUR RELATIONSHIP! CAN YOU PLEASE, PLEASE?! UNDERSTAND ME! I HAVE NO ONE ELSE! I HAVE NO ONE ELSE! UNDERSTAND! I'M NOT THAT FUCKING FAMOUS BOYSTER ANYMORE! I HAVE CHANGED! CHANGED!!!!!!!!!!!! =<
What else i gonna do! I wanna kill myself! :<
CUT MY WRIST BETTER!
